hahax ^^ thanks to my friends, had a great great dinner at chomp chomp.. thank the lord I did not met Aunt >.<" I think in this life I will never be in any good terms with her anymore..
lol sometimes its really you believe or not.. some people tend to meet more stupid incidences and more curvy roads in their lives, and for me, its like episodic type of incidences.. maybe because i live such a good life that problems like this occurs. No one else will prolly gets it but me.
Well, no matter what, everyone had their own solitary moments of miseries and misfortunes, one side that they will choose not to let anyone knows.
But all in all, I had a great and super full dinner at chomp chomp. :D we analysed which ice kachang was better.. and in the end we talked out the pros and cons.. PS. >.<" there was this unneccessary fight over the "亞達子" lol! and erm corn avalanche >.<" hahaha.
Wow.. suddenly felt the stress-relief feeling, I think everyone feels that too :D.
I am so tired but internally I don't feel like sleeping. >.<"
Just can't believe I find it hard breathing lately, hopefully, its just because of the stress. This morning (yesterday), I had these series of panic attacks.. = ="
It seldom comes to me, the most was to feel the adrenaline rush but there was this sensation that I felt.. I could hardly breathe normally and I felt nausea along with the hyperventilation.. = ="" omg..
this is really not what i want things to turn out.. *finger crossed*
Clara Koh!! you must take things 1 step at a time!! I think you're going to drive yourself nutz if you continue to force yourself to your limits!!
Lesson to overcome for now: let my mind rest.. let my mindset change, get myself out of that whole mindset of stresses.. let go of what will happen to my family, let go of what will happen to my studies.. let go of the future.. Just live for today!!
Live today 'til the fullest!!
Lesson learnt: When you overthink, you tend to loose yourself. And when you loose yourself, it is either very hard for you to find yourself, or you need to seek help! If you find yourself lost, get out in the society.. Make some friends.. and prolly things will get better.. Unless >.<" you meet friends that will really make you believe that solitude is better than groups.. then find something that you can hold on for a long time. A passion for life, something so interesting that will keep you occupied. And the next step is what im trying to learn. Since I'm such a loser >.<" nothing seems to holds me down.. I need to do something, keep searching for new things that can keep me interested.. i swear i never want to relaspe again.
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