換日線

Yes.. Been awhile since im here..
So much has happened in the past month.
Today's a special day cause it's mom's birthday!
Went to the long time no visit Great World City!
Everything seems so familiar yet strange..
That's because I haven't been there for at least a decade!
Anyways mom treated us Crystal Jade,
I wanted to treat her but then..
I was thinking I could treat her something better in the US..
Time flies.. Xmas's coming up shortly..
& i've got 2 major assignments left waiting to be cleared
before my trip to the states.. -_-" long haul flights..
im flying again.. this yr ive flown twice to *ahem* countries..
im seriously gonna use the holidays to contemplate
whether or not to continue with my current job..
If im really gonna continue to spend my money like this
*shakes head*
Im running late for assignments.. i should stop
talking to myself here.. I hope mom's happy but
I can tell from the look of her face..
Dad's going overseas tomorrow again,
and im going to have a peaceful week!
Can't wait for my great escape..
i do need a holiday!
Eat well
Rest well
Enjoy well
Walk more
Laugh more
Love more
Sleep more
xD orange county.. i'll be there in no time! wait for me~~ :D
Song of the day: 張智成- 換日線

不知不覺這首成爲我出發的一首歌 :)
緣分是一件很奇妙的事情..
過客很多 有緣無份的也很多..
所以, 對的人出現時 要怎麽把握?
傻傻的青春 又錯過了多少機會?
長大後 還會期待些什麽嗎?
或許 當哪天 那位對的人終於出現時..
放手一搏 大膽去愛 或許這樣才會把握得住機會吧..
緣分就像是 上段接下段吧.. 但是 緣分還是一件很奇妙的事情..
「當飛機越過傷心換日線
天空只留下寂寞無聲的盤旋
如果季風能把感覺連線
要傳達給你說不完的思念」

紫愛 陳百強—21周年

當我偶然聽見《等》 這首歌時，他已故20周年.
而我也剛好錯過了..
Danny仔 若如今在世的話 他就和我爸爸一樣年齡了
所以在我心中的Danny仔 好似一個「阿叔」的角色
一整年來, 我聼了很多首他的歌.
他的歌聲是多麽難以忘懷, 獨一無二.
在 Danny仔 所飾演過的角色裡, 都有一個共同特點
那就是他憂鬱的外表下 内心卻藏著細膩的個性..
有如像《我可能不會愛你》劇情中的「李大仁」
其實.. 我發現 陳伯霖 也是處女座的!
以星座來説我們都知道處女座是出了明的 完美主義者
我想他們啊.. 勞累的話應該都是來自要求高吧!
總是希望把任何事情都做到最好.
所以成果好 當然是因爲他們用心思換來的.
説到李大仁 我想到《偏偏喜歡你》這首歌..
算是在 陳百強 所有的歌曲中最膾炙人口不過的一首歌.
或許程又青明明對李大仁有那麽一小點的意思
卻常常嘴硬心軟地以爲她是在同情李大仁..
可想李大仁啊.. 你又爲何「偏偏喜歡她」?
《今宵多珍重》讓我想到聚少離多的那種情感..
無論親情、友情或愛情 20多年我也總是扮演者祝福者..
就像《盼望的緣分》吧..
《一生何求》國語版是王傑唱的《惦記著一切》
兩個版本都很喜歡 :) 一生爲了什麽而追求? 我常常問自己
陳百強拍過好幾部電影像是《喝彩》裡就收入幾首好歌
《喝彩》《眼淚為你流》
《漣漪》—這首據説是和陳百強寫給在《喝彩》裡同台過的翁靜晶
接下來是我蠻喜歡的一部戯《失業生》
這裡是「三劍客」最後一次同台演出
《有了你》《失業生》《念親恩》
我真的很喜歡《有了你》 記得戯裡陳百強飾演鐘保儸的哥哥
年輕有爲擁有自己的理想
然而音樂總是對父母來説是一種“賺不了錢”的工作
希望子女念大學能腳踏實地 地找一份安分的工作..
最後不負所望 陳百強 寫了一首歌《有了你》
在台上自彈自唱表演 也完成自己的夢想
陳百強不是所有的歌都很悲傷.. 他想表達的是一種純愛!
淡淡的憂傷 其實我總覺得是一種優雅的特質
像是《深愛著你》《天生不是情人》《迷失中有著你》
還有和 Crystal Gayle 合唱的《Tell Me What Can I Do》
無論怎樣, 我很感動他的歌依舊被流傳下去!
相信 70-80年代 當香港還是著名的音樂城時,
一個才華橫溢 很優秀的才子再樂壇出現了.
我萬分感激 在我成長的過程中 能聼過他的歌!
最近我很喜歡《一生不可自決》 Danny 唱歌最犀利!
還有《在這孤獨晚上》《粉紅色的一生》好經典的歌曲!
陳百強的個性 有幾多還蠻像自己的. :)
「不刻意追尋燦爛與無盡的愛 只盼珍惜那完美的一刹永恆」-陳百強
好挂住你.. 希望我可以不留遺憾的走過這一生! 多謝嗮! :)

It's Not Easy To Be Me...

Sometimes.. I wonder how fate works to pull two strangers
from both end of the world together..
Just one fine day, you get to meet this stranger..
you became friends, you found something in common,
and you became best friends.
Days, months, years past..
You are so relied on each other that.. you want to
spend the rest of your lives together..
Here comes the commitment..
One works extra hard, & the other
gave birth to their first born..
Days, months, years past again..
You see your child(ren) cry, crawl, walk, speak, grow
One works extra hard, & the other do the house chores.
the time spent together gets lesser and lesser.
all the fantasy, imaginations, expectations
hid under the surface.. there's no sharing of feelings
only kept deep inside..
Tell me what is a family?
What does it even feel like to have a family?
Two go to school, one goes to work, one stays at home.
Sat & Sun.. One goes out, one talks to the PC &
two watches tv series from their laptops..
& fate again.. could push two lovers apart
as it does to pull two strangers together...
Being the child... standing from that point of view..
how lost am i to be? at the age of 23..
i have yet to see, how fascinating and cruel fate could be?
tired of dramas, in fact, am really tired of life.
all the kings horses and all the kings men
couldn't put mom and dad together again..
I have always been emotional.. but
do you know that Enough is Enough?
you can fight all you want.. but i want out
even if it is to return every single thing
i have started to use from your forsaken money
since they cut my cord..
im entitled to be yours..
i was given a name
but i was never given the freedom to say, how i felt..
i could never express my dislikes in this
"family"... i wonder if i even have one?
we're just colleagues? room mates?
living under one roof.. despite im still
using your forsaken money..
we tried so hard but the equilibrium has to be shaken..
all i wanna say is..
i know it's not easy to be anyone that's living on earth..
first world has first world's pain..
third world has third world's problems..
& I just wanna say that it's not easy to be me,
even though you think I am lucky to have most things..
take a closer look, the microscopic view.. im more than this..
& God.. if you're even out there..
I have been praying since 2004..
A decade already.. could you possibly give me a sign?
I don't cry like i used to.. big girls don't cry..
but im really numb inside.. do you know..?

Mayday 五月天- Singapore F1 GP 2014

Since I haven't type in this language for awhile..
I shall continue to type in English..
Ahh I should be writing my assignment that is due 9:59pm +8 GMT..
But I'm only a few paragraphs in the essay..
I want to sleep.. I feel sleepy despite having 6 hours of slp!
Why am I still not satisfied? I just heard my water boiled..
I should go get a cup of coffee and get refreshed..
Tomorrow.. work again -_-" seriously don't feel like going..
This is the distress.. feeling demotivated than compared to eustress..
that positive stress that you know you wanna work more and more..
sighz. luckily there was Mayday's concert to shift my attention.
shift it away from all those unnecessary whining..
even though Mayday's songs always made me flashback to
certain memories.. at least the atmosphere was fabulous!
Their last outdoor concert in Singapore was around June 2010?
Right before the old National Stadium closes.
I'm proud to say Singapore is Mayday's second home!
I like that unity feeling ^^
Time never ever stops going forward..
Who knows what will happen tomorrow?
Who can foresee their own last days?
I think memories are one of the main things that keep people alive..
Without memories, what will you become?
Would you cherish things better?
Trust is a serious matter! I am here to learn how to trust & not to be
mistrusted etc. etc. ... at times,
I seriously don't know who to trust anymore.
It's coming to that solitary mid-life age, isn't it?
Maybe because... you've once trusted somebody so truly that in the end,
it turned out a lie.. pure white lies that you are so willing to
continue bluffing and psycho-ing yourself into believing that,
it was all so true..
Everybody was once naive.. once an innocent child.
For the first time I have to disagree with my younger self..
no, it's not fun being an adult..
not like how you wanna grow up so much..
sometimes you'd rather not have so much freedom in life..
cause you'll eventually finds out that there is a cost to everything..
everything that you do or say makes a difference..
ok.. my coffee has turned cold >.< busy.busy.busy
needa stop getting distracted!



Tonight's gonna be a starry night..
「摸不到的顏色 是否叫彩虹
看不到的擁抱 是否叫做微風
一個人 習慣一個人

這一刻獨自望著星空 從前的從前 從沒變過
寂寞可以是忍受 也可以是享受 享受僅有的擁有

那一年我們望著星空 有那麼多的 燦爛的夢
至少回憶會永久 像不變星空 陪著我
最後只剩下星空 像不變回憶陪著我」

五月天 謝謝你們! :)

夜夜夜夜·這又是何必?

不知不覺的我 已經習慣用中文來寫博客
上個星期開始了我人生第一份工作..
工作環境差 那就算了.. 人際關係更差..
這時候的我說: 這又是何必?
那麽辛苦又何必?
每個人 的人生目標只有為錢而活
然後失去遠志 失去理想 失去人生目標..
可是我 被教育起的所有根本無法和
這真實的世界作比較..
折磨自己, 這又是何必?
或許是一份工作裡有著太多 "政治"
暗藏著 太多不可告人的秘密
所以才會有很多人自願 掉頭就走..
自願犧牲飯碗 自願辭職不幹
也不願意 失去自尊與人權
這又是何必?
或許我真的還很年輕,
經過這次教訓後.. 以後我會更加小心..
原來小人 那麽多
不願意幫助別人的人 那麽多
不願意培養別人的人 那麽多
願意看著你掙扎的人 那麽多
願意看著你出錯的人 那麽多
原來工作 的世界 是這樣如此..
這又是何必?
我想我又要邁進《失業生》的步伐了..
這又是何必?
人生既苦又短暫啊!
後悔又可曾來得及?
但 我不是天生悲觀..
我仍然相信我會等到自己《出頭天》
那時候.. 我應該會很有成就感!
今天.. 先來一首 這樣的歌吧~
本人比較喜歡原創 熊天平唱這樣藍藍憂傷的感覺
齊秦大哥唱的是他獨特瀟灑的風格帶著一些懊惱的情緒
梁靜茹呢, 一夜長大的小女孩的心聲 :)

懷錶之穿越過去未來

「Di Da Di Da　愛的時計
Di Da Di Da　再回不去
Di Da Di Da　時間的斷句」

上個月又發生了很多有趣的事 :)
有好多話想說但是, 總是不知道要怎麽表達吧..
上個星期我人還在澳洲, Sydney. 有一天半的時間
是自己在亂逛的.. 或許一個人安靜獨處時候的我最清醒!
逛了唐人街 看見一個攤子在賣很多懷錶
心想, 小時候就很想要一個來收藏.
想了好久 那條街我來回走了許多遍.. 最後還是買下了.
我想時間是很奇妙的 你永遠都不曉得下一秒會發生什麽.
時間可以帶來快樂 也可以帶來悲傷

昨天心不甘情不願的 走出一家小公司
因爲覺得自己並沒有那麽差 只是人生經歷還不夠
沒有必要被上司批評成那樣..
原來 失業 與 待業 都是非常緊張的時刻
恨不得現在可以有些收入.. 然後不再向爸爸拿錢..
畢竟自己也長大了.. 我開始覺得向爸媽拿錢是不對的..
唉.. 我又嘆氣了.
如果時間能帶我穿越過去未來, 我真正的答案是
我不願意出現在這個世界上.
但這種逃避的答案 並不符合每一個人
畢竟.. 我都流浪了23年
應該想想接下來的時光應該如何過才是..

「昨天太近 明天太遠 默默聆聽那黑夜」

矜持.. 是我人生最大的阻礙.
如果我能大膽去愛 那該多好?
不知道爲什麽明明 很愛的 我都可以放任他去
他們說: 因爲我並沒有很愛他..
但是 愛與不愛 我都搞不太清楚了
我現在只想搞好 自己的未來, 先工作賺錢
能養活自己 然後再去盤旋 愛與哀愁 的所有問題.
或許因爲時間 一格一格的往前進
回憶卻在 一格一格的往後退吧
就讓最美好的畫面
停留在那一刻往前進與後退的時光裡吧
把說不出的 永遠收藏在懷錶裡
把蓋子打開時 那份愛依然存在 :)

「Di Da Di Da　愛的時計
Di Da Di Da　再回不去
Di Da Di Da　記得我愛你」

一刀不剪??

又一陣子沒寫了.. It's July!
爲什麽Title是一刀不剪? 因爲.. 炎亞綸出了2nd mini album!
(唉.. 其實也不知道該放什麽Title >.<")
上個月聼了《DRAMA》 還蠻喜歡那個mini album的!
現在又出《CUT》忽然想起阿布在Aaron's Time裡有些生氣
因爲不希望這次的專輯概念太過複雜.. 我想應該是這個原因吧..?
剛剛除了《台北沉睡了》和《一刀不剪》
還聼了《好想對他說》和《綁架愛情》覺得特別喜歡這兩首!:D
《愛上兩個我》結局要到了.. 還真是很期待!
不管是 路天行 或 小路! :)
對了最近猛往gym跑.. 也開始運動了起來
給自己一個減肥計劃 一個月下來 沒有給自己理由..還滿順利的
就這樣維持習慣.. 希望一年後 會有收穫! >.<"
又要開學了.. 這次有些壓力了.. 半工半讀
工作又沒錢賺.. 讀書卻連命都賠上去了..
突然想起 在幾個月前 很崇拜的 陳百強
還記得前幾個月 繙了很久以前的資料..
找到一部電影《失業生》張國榮 和 鍾保羅
他們三劍客都有主演.. 陳百強的個性偶爾會讓我想到自己..
沒錯很想抱怨.. 這是畢業後 在人生中嘗到的第一波「失業」
隨年齡 我想人生最後一波「失業」也就等於「退休」吧?
希望不遠的將來 能把「失業」改成「事業」有成..
倒數5天.. 我想七月會很忙吧..
距離五月天的演唱會:兩個月
距離周杰倫的演唱會:四個月
很快就可以盡情享受音樂了!
我要*祈禱*耳鳴趕快痊愈! 這樣時好時壞 我也害怕..
最後要恭賀林俊傑! 你是新加坡的驕傲!
恭喜得了25屆金曲獎-最佳國語男歌手獎! 等了好久哦!
為我喜愛的歌手們祝賀! <3

五月的最後一天

嗯.. 有一個月沒寫了.. 唉 逐漸的沒時間
找工作的時間 念書的時間.. 嗯..
當然不可少過的放鬆時間!
我又開始放假了~ ^^ 這個假期應該是這麽過的:
1) 結識新朋友
2) 繼續追《海賊王》/《ONE PIECE》!!
朋友說我個性很像喬巴! 哈哈 哎呀謝謝啦 ^^"
3) 繼續的小鹿亂撞 :D 最近啊.. 三立都會偶像劇《愛上兩個我》
真的讓我對 炎亞綸另眼相看! 覺得他進步了!
他今天在 Instagram 說希望能有人在他的背拍一拍
然後說:「做得很好！加油」
好吧~ 我看到很多粉絲都為他加油了! 我就默默寫在博客裡 紀錄紀錄 xD
小鹿 vs 路天行.. 結局是什麽呢? 期待-ing~
4) 炎亞綸 新專輯《DRAMA》也是值得等待, 過程當中..
我學會彈《這不是我》&《台北沉睡了》! 好神奇哦..
我沒碰鋼琴有好一段時間了! >.<" :D 但是我真的很喜歡那旋律 :)
對了! 今早才想到我忘了看《第四集》的 Aaron's Time- 實境節目!
覺得對照之下.. 我們都是這麽過日子的..
嗯，我也單身很瞭解爲什麽睡覺時身旁需要 熊大(LINE Brown Bear)
:D 希望他找到真愛, 我的桃花朵朵開~ ^^

昨天我在 Instagram 上做了個對比.
把喬巴(Tony Tony Chopper) 和 亞綸在《愛上兩個我》裡的 小鹿
拼貼在一起 然後昨晚 亞綸就拼貼了他國中時期的照片和現在的樣子!
因爲是他第一張拼貼的圖 所以我超興奮的! 哎呀, 別太高興了!
或許只是巧合 ^^ 媽媽說我最近真的在小鹿亂撞 >_<
好吧, 就寫到這.. 我們來聼聼阿布和G.NA 合唱的歌吧~
對喔,今天五月的最後一天了.. 那麽多加一首吧!
期待 五月天 9月19日 Padang 不見不散! ^^

Recovery

Just came across a new musician and
I wanna give him a push :)
I was listening to Recovery and Get Down last night
& got really hooked to both songs.

"..I used to be so discerning and I know I've become dismissive."
"In the sound of the sea
In the oceans of me
I defined
I designed
My recovery"

"Outside there's a bird and it is singing
And outside of my window, there's a life
I feel like someone's talking to my spirit
They tell me that there's reasons to survive"

"'Cause all these scenes of grief got my head spinnin'
And we're dancing on the edge of a knife
And could I be your hero or your villain
Uh, I guess it just depends in whose eyes"

"I don't get down, 'cause you lift me up."
"'Cause it ain't over, 'til it's over."





I survived, I am stronger! :)
Through life experiences, I guess
that's what everyone's hoping to hear.
"What does not destroy me, makes me stronger."
- Friedrich Nietzsche, The Twilight of the Idols (1899)

道別三月之前

在三月離開之前 總結一下 這個月發生了太多事
一來一個我還沒那麼熟悉的表哥 去世了..
的年26 敗給一種罕見的癌症- Sarcoma
他一月才診斷出腫瘤是惡性的
但誰也沒想到癌細胞擴散的時間竟是那麼快又短暫.
看著他的家人和女友 心裡難免感到沮喪 畢竟念在一份親情..
最近的馬航新聞也搞得我一家四口追新聞追得沸沸揚揚的!
總算是有個方向 茫茫大海 真的是很大啊!
然後.. 連續播放的那些政治問題
搞得我每天一轉到新聞台就憂心匆匆的..
可惡的是全部國家都是亞洲地帶的!!
克里米亞- 俄羅斯 和 烏克蘭
中國- 日本 臺灣 馬來西亞
泰國
北韓
我們祖宗用血汗換來的和平..
唉.. 生日過後 連連發生不好的事情 我的心也跟著牽絆著
當情緒湧上心頭時, 哭出來也好 不哭也罷..
一個人擁有太多的面具 而這裡算是能卸下心房的最好不過的地方
善變是人的本性 無法更改
無法更改的事就 隨它去吧
「情」這字不只是11筆划來得簡單啊..
越是熟悉的人 其實越不了解他.
越是珍貴 越是易碎 然後就變憔悴
時間越長 眼前那個人越模糊
距離越遠 眼前那個人卻如此清晰..
作業瘋狂爬到巔峰了.. 今晚的我需要一點寧靜來處理惱人的思緒..

嗯.. 話不多說了 來一首經典之作吧!
35年後 依然流傳下去的歌就是值得欣賞的歌曲!

陳百強 眼淚為妳流


「惟盼望情愛如舊 眼淚在心裡流」
「情是內心的交流 盼心曲再奏」

*祈禱世界和平共處*

23

Just wanna update on my life..
It's been really an interesting journey thus far.
Been having lots of flashbacks lately as i lie
awake each night, couldnt get myself to sleep.
Yst was the day, yeah i turn 23.
I was sittin' home, watching the Oscars
and catching those movies after the award show..
Sharing some short reviews/ just simple appreciation to those
that I've got a glance through!

12 Years a Slave-- Haven't touched on this movie, but
Im sure it won Best Picture for a reason. It could be a
historical documentation film, either or yes a long road
to freedom for the African Americans in which,
I am glad that it finally has a movie for educational purposes.
Congrats to the team!

Gravity-- watched it last autumn, really breath taking!
Plausible that it won so many items. Really adore Sandra Bullock!

Frozen-- Disney, what can i say? Been every children's
memory at least pretty sure from the late 80's on wards..
But there's something different in Frozen that the past
Disney cartoon did not touched on:
The mutual love from a family member!
Sure brings up some similarities according to your birth order.
The elder ones would fall into responsible, Elsa and
the younger ones might be the wanting to have fun, Anna.
Either or it was a heart warming family oriented cartoon.
Which I adore it very much in fact the last few Disney
I've watched was Mickey mouse and Ariel the mermaid.
Oh lets not get there! :D

Her-- I just gave this movie a run through.. & i thought
it was deep and at the same time depressing. Have you ever..
chatted with an AI robot online? I am pretty sure curiosity
gets to me along with some loneliness..
Theodore is a good example to be more socialise and active in the
Real world. By what real world means, it is the everyday living..
Im glad that Im still living with my mom.. at least, her voice
would make this house feel warmer even though it may not be
what i wanna hear most of the time. *Spoilers Alert*
Living alone, having a divorce case at hand. Getting to know
an AI robot that offers everything in your wish..
Reliance, and separations.. and wouldn't you feel alone again?
It really got me thinking.. "do you wanna carry on living like this?"
like a "living dead person?" yup. it's depressing.

Overall, even though it sucked to be alone at times..
Running away doesn't do anything good to anyone.
Realisation takes weeks, months or even years for anyone to
just snap out of it and tell him/herself that "this is not right..
something's gotta change." with that, we always have to
have an open mind to accept. not necessarily agreeing to disagree.
but, to accept it and move on. With that, I shall end here.
23-- baby steps. 1,2,3.

Valentine's Day..「等」

Lol.. My last entry was pre Japan..
now im more than post Japan but also post Bkk..
Vacays are soon to be over..
Depression's coming back again..
Aiyo. 2 more yrs.. I really need to start workin.
So many things had changed since I came back from China.
It felt like a dream. A long and self learning one.
Felt like a coma.. couldn't get myself to wake up.
Until today.. though not be to mistaken..
Single's pretty much hate today but well..
a song taught me to love myself more even though
the undertone is kinda sad but..
i shall not waste any more time dreaming of impossibilities.
the past will not come back to life.
Just wanna share a really nice song ^^

陳百強- 等