雪候鳥

The title.. hmm nothing much was listening to this song.
Suddenly, I remembered my mum said my chinese name was
sung in this song.. so I went to listen.. and to my surprise..
the lyrics was "死灰" and i was like err yup that sound like my name!
ya la it sound like 思慧!
>.<" anyways while i was listenin to this song..
i felt the winter chills.. i dunno why but yes.. this song was
perfectly melancholy.. if you really think you had amnesia..
listen to this song and think again..
prolly you'll be using a box of tissue instead.. haha exaggerate

Don't know why im particularly interested in songs like this..
songs that had the underline meaning "waiting".. waiting and
waiting.. and endlessly waiting for an answer that will have
no answer to it.. oh wells never been in love, never been through
big losses.. possibly i haven't been so traumatised
yet, i can relate.. ask myself why so many times..
but i just feel things more intensely .. which is bad?
all i know is that from young my parents and teachers and friends..
they all told me the same thing...

that is why are you so moody? weak? soft? kind? as if i know?
well, if i knew i think i would hide it away from you than
to listen to this over and over again?
dunno.. lately im lacking of passion.. lacking of being..
lacking of love.. lacking of feeling.. lacking of living..
lacking of knowing.. lacking of learning.. lacking of understanding..
lacking of meaning.. lacking of interest.. lacking of motivation..
im lacking so many things that seem so hard to reach.

where some people out there took their lives just to lack a shelter.
lack a meal, lack of money, lack of status, lack of power..
their lives seem to be so much difficult than mine
yet, i can't seem to overcome that small obstacle compared to them.

if 8 years ago.. i did not leave, where will i be?
will things be better? will i be whole?
Each place that i go i leave a piece of puzzle.
now.. im really missing each and every piece of them.
without the puzzle pieces.. i'll never be whole.
just like the migratory birds.. never to stay at a place
because they're always searching for the past place..
where it cannot be found again. but the migratory birds never
give up they're willing to spend their lives searching..
just for that one place.
may i spend my life just to search for that one place.

我們知足嗎？

或許真的有如他們說的一樣 到了一個階段，到了一個時期，
明白和懂事 就這樣突然的在你腦裏醒悟了。
說要我恨，我相信這世上一定會有人辦得到。。
但是恐怕，傷人的話總是說的太快。。其實要恨一輩子，我辦不到。
隨著時間，我成長了。。 很多事情都處境在一個左右爲難的困境裏面
我們都需要面對，都需要勇氣做選擇。當然很多事情並沒有選擇。

或許我們做晚輩的 是否能團結 把原有的夢想 創造成更好的社會、世界。。
雖然我們的父母都熬過去了 其實換作是我們 活在他們的童年
我們體會不到 也應該有所理解吧
知足，這是如此簡單的兩個字。我們能不能停下腳步，放下手中的作業
看看周圍的事物。。看看鏡子前的你。
你會發現，在忙忙碌碌之中的你已經不如往常快樂，不如往常年少。
你會發現，時間已經偷偷的在你身邊奔過。要怎麽去追？

這觀念。。倒不如讓我們問問自己 要怎麽去改善生活的忙碌，給自己一些時間
重新認識自己，找回年少時的夢想 一一去實現他們。。把人生填滿，不留一絲遺憾。
這樣知足的活下去，煩惱不就自然消失，輕鬆和快樂不就自然而然在你身邊嗎？
朋友啊，或許我們想時間還長。。可是知足和珍惜
是我們現代人應該學著了解的，一旦醒悟了。煩惱自然少，内心裏的快樂就會湧出來。
做好自己的本分，做好自己的責任，不要追求奢華，這些只會讓你越陷越深。
不了解別人，沒關係，不要得罪別人。要緊的是了解自己。
希望有一天這城市 會明白人類是有情的 過於追求完美無暇的 只會讓自己筋疲力盡，
提早老化。。想要活的長久。關鍵在自己。。 自己願意給自己多少快樂。

金錢能用今生，卻不能買一世。快樂能用今生，也能傳好幾世。
快樂無價，保持樂觀!