Flashes

erm i don't know what brought me here today. but somehow i just need to make sense to what i've been seein'/thinkin' today.

so after i brought my bro to his tuition today.. i was basically walkin' around amk hub waiting to fetch him once he's done. but as i was walking around.. flashes of my past came to me.. i don't know how to explain it but it all came to me so suddenly.. at first was fine, but the flashes gets to me way frequently after the first few times..

grr, i seriously hate to be haunted by my past. im pretty sure no one likes to be haunted by those unwanted past memories. but its really sick when you can't do anything to stop it from flashing in your head.. i don't know why. but places or small little things could remind me of people that i've known in the past.

those familiar feelings or feelings that had been lost and im longing to get them back. but all i know is that reality strikes, no matter how much i want to change, how much i want the change.. i can't change the person that's not supposed to be controlled by me.

and all i thought in this life was to just get on with it-- keep the peace of mind. keep everything tgt because i know happiness lies in when mending occurs. but since in reality humans act harshly, once there's a crack on the glass, its like "that's it we're done, and the next min. you know, that piece of glass is already lying on the floor into millions of broken pieces where mending is hardly possible that one would rather get another 'new' glass to replace the one that had soo many memories shared in it"..

i don't understand, why am i feeling like this today, pretty odd. just when i thought i place the ones whom i love somewhere spotless, yet.. i can actually feel that they're still there from time to time; in reality they're no longer the ones that i knew from the start.

i don't want to escape anything that i've done or said. i just want an honest way to get around it. anyways i was just tryin' to say that its impossible for me to forget you.