Trust.

Sometimes, I wish I could just close my eyes and trust everyone.

no matter they're lying to me or truthful to me.

But most of the time it hurts just to know that im fooling myself.

what to do? Female is a gender that allows emotions to rule over reasons.

Which, seriously i hate it. Recently, I found a trend in Linkin Park's songs.

Such as In the end. It's about trust. From the inside. It's also about trust.

"I put my trust in you, pushed as far as I can go." In the end.

"And how trying to put my trust in you, just takes so much out of me." From the inside.

no matter what. Linkin Park songs could be interpretated in so many different ways.

I've seen suicidal thoughts, relationships, religions.. etc.

but my point is that. sometimes, you ought to reach that moment to understand certain feelings.

or else, no matter how strong the words or language is. it will never get to you.

One thing im breakin' in the firewall sys. and writing this is because.

i really hate to trust someone whom i really thought i could rely on.

but this one thought always hit me back. that is if i couldnt even trust my family

(who are the closest to me). who else could i trust in this world? a stranger?

p.s. that is not possible .. prolly i let my heart win all the time. and what i get

is the strong headed feelin that always riot inside of me!

"I've tried so hard and get so far but in the end, it doesn't even matter."
"I had to fall to loose it all but in the end, it doesn't even matter."

is it really like this? putting my trust in you does not even matter?