Last Time Out- 26.6.09

Went out to visit my friends one last time. A little don’t know what to say..
Because we’ve been through so many hard and fun times. I do feel many different emotions at this point of time. Wish everyone best of luck in future..:S

Well, as we say our last goodbyes we’re heading to our new start. It’s very exciting but yet, im having a weird feelin’ :S… hopefully im really overthinkin’ this time.
And the news today confirms that Michael Jackson passed away! 25th June Western time and 26th June Eastern time.. wow I couldn’t believe I were just listening to his songs a couple of weeks ago! :S

Anyways..i’m really tired of the things im seeing now, hopefully im really ready to go and never look back, I’ve regretted once in my life. I’ll try not to do that a second time.. sighz worst is that all these blog entries are written beforehand.. cos blogger is still blocked in china…:S

PS. R.I.P Michael Jackson . Your songs will stay in this century forever.

Trust.

Sometimes, I wish I could just close my eyes and trust everyone.

no matter they're lying to me or truthful to me.

But most of the time it hurts just to know that im fooling myself.

what to do? Female is a gender that allows emotions to rule over reasons.

Which, seriously i hate it. Recently, I found a trend in Linkin Park's songs.

Such as In the end. It's about trust. From the inside. It's also about trust.

"I put my trust in you, pushed as far as I can go." In the end.

"And how trying to put my trust in you, just takes so much out of me." From the inside.

no matter what. Linkin Park songs could be interpretated in so many different ways.

I've seen suicidal thoughts, relationships, religions.. etc.

but my point is that. sometimes, you ought to reach that moment to understand certain feelings.

or else, no matter how strong the words or language is. it will never get to you.

One thing im breakin' in the firewall sys. and writing this is because.

i really hate to trust someone whom i really thought i could rely on.

but this one thought always hit me back. that is if i couldnt even trust my family

(who are the closest to me). who else could i trust in this world? a stranger?

p.s. that is not possible .. prolly i let my heart win all the time. and what i get

is the strong headed feelin that always riot inside of me!

"I've tried so hard and get so far but in the end, it doesn't even matter."
"I had to fall to loose it all but in the end, it doesn't even matter."

is it really like this? putting my trust in you does not even matter?

Just came home from.. Crown Plaza Hotel

wow.. what a night man!!

actually i did had fun, jenny and i fooled around with our instruments..

violin + guitar :D bahah although for awhile, we went singing songs..

later we had a bath then we listened to music on the tv.

it was pretty cool as the first song on the list was "phantom of opera" LOL!

we sang a lil, then I went on choosin cool songs like:

- the cranberries "dreams"
- westlife "my love, i lay my love on you, what makes a man"
- michael jackson "you are not alone, beat it"

omg .. i really had fun after been through like so many events.

the view was really fantastically nice, we saw the fountains and ferris wheel :D.

but the part that i find a lil .. but it was not anyone;s fault anyways..

i slept at 10 pm with jenny, then i was woke up by a door bangin' sound at 12 am.. = =

i was kinda half asleep half awake, then started to chat with chien ling, since she did not chose

to go the after prom party.. then we slept at about 2 am = =.. and woke up at 4+ am again..

since sarah + trixie came back.. wow seriously.. i cant sleep in again, but out of a sight.

i fell asleep without notice, and woke up at 7:30.. tried to fool around with the other four,

but resisted to, since they were all soo tired, at last everyone was awake about 8:30 am

then we went out of "breakfast" at 10+ am.. omg we took our "break-lunch" hahahx

and then we went back to the hotel.. rest for awhile, jenny and i checked out first, and we head back home..

and that's about an hour ago. but now im home, i need a rest :D.

5.6.09- High School GRADUATION

:D 要用千言万语也无法形容此刻的心情.

Class of 2009 we threw our mortar boards into the air.

almost tripped over by the mortar boards lol = =..

but this is a really good memory of mine in China..SSIS.

I wrote a CAS evaluation, and they quoted my words :D cant even overcome my reaction by then..

anyways it's a very nice fullstop to my high school life.

at least i gain some achievements, at least my hard works were recognised..

i guess, that's me :D i'm lookin' forward to my brand new start.

hopefully, things will slowly change from the worst to something pleasant.

Tmr is the day.. i've waited for my 6 long years

I use unblock to come in again!!!

FINALLY...

Tmr I'm making a fullstop to my highschool life.

Omg.. I cant believe I had made it through. There are just too many twists and turns..

Went out with Jenny, Hsin Pei, Sarah Y, Chien Ling, Sangeethaa + Trixie

Had lunch at one of the Jiu Guang restaurant..

Then Trixie had to go after playin like 60 coins in the arcade? O_O hey we managed to finish it!

Then, what did we do.. ohh we took a cab down to Hao Le Di..lol took a medium size room.

we sang crazy songs, Jenny, as usual sang oprah-tic songs :D enjoyed it.

Hsin Pei spent most of the time singing duets with Jenny, Chien Ling and Sarah also sang duets..

well what did sangeethaa and i do? well we sang rnb songs! :D nice i really went out of breath

when i sang "closer" .. but yea i thought this would be a great part of my memory.

okay.. right after that we extended 30 mins.. which still took up some time..

wa anyways it was really funny that jenny, hsin pei and i were the ones who waited in the rain for

about 10 mins just to get a cab.. im a lil sick now.. and moreover i cant fall sick tmr..

it's the day i've waited for so long.. sighz plus one really great thing done by me..

was that I smashed my camera's screen ..omg the flat glass inside broke into pieces! Thanks to

my spare video cam.. or else im so gonna get scoldin'.. it's like my bro is performin' tmr..

and my mum almost scolded me like she used to.. ..

bla anyways im lookin' forward to my few exams left to take and then it's so over!