>.<" im home..

yup i think the best feeling that im goin' thru is this:

"I never knew I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears" --Over My Head, The Fray

yet im still wishing someone out there to find me:

"Where were you when the everything was falling apart
All my days were spent by the telephone that never rang
And all I needed was a call that never came..
Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor surrounded, surrounded
Why'd have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me." --You Found Me, The Fray

hmm im really glad to be home once again, although i know within the past months i had a seriously crappy record, i made 2 adults hated me with 2 months, lol what's more to come huh? im so lookin' forward to it. and there's nothing more on this world that im holdin' on to live on. Seriously nothing that is holdin' me on to live on. But yet, im still seeing the sun rises and sets.

sometimes, a person needs to sit down and think through what had happened, it may take days and days, months over months and even years to understand why.
it never took me days, it never took me months either, i think the key is to let age grow and you'll finally understand why. and yup, nothing much to talk about this trip cause everyone in the family falls apart, im trying so hard to save something that does not involve me in the story. yes, i admit that i do not exist in their love story, but, one thing i still gotta stand up for is that if there's no love exist why do you want to drag down the other party? why should there be violence throughout the whole damn relationship? i can handle just about anything, but i can never allow violence in my eyes. so yea conclusion was that DAD = Disappointed And Disappointing

but live goes on and on and on and on. it never ends until you find out why. but anyhow.. >.<" im having this jet lag feeling although i slept the moment i reached home.. still im feeling tired.. ok i hope everyone feels better for tomorrow, we must hope for the better, no matter how bad the situation you're goin' through today!!