Qwerticism

Counting Down!

2012-02-07T15:21:00.004+08:00

Hmm.. so far it's been a peaceful year into
2012 and the year of Dragon =)
Thoughts of adulthood had been on my mind lately.
ive been constantly reminding myself that
im about to turn.. 21!!
holycow! it really felt as if yesterday was only 12!
As usual.. I have no idea what dna am i made of..
i just can't seem to get rid of the baby fats! lol
as they say.. it's a good thing!
"you're always cute!" hahaha! thanks for that..
compliment! ahaha hopefully one day..
i... can...
anyways.. im so busy planning my 21st birthday!
and its burdensome in a way becos.. i'll have to
take care of my guests, and where on earth am i
going to look for and rent 20 over chairs?? o.O..
hee i'll have to keep smiling! :D:):D:):D
and the best part.. the clean up..
oh gosh.. lol i think this is it.. i threw a party,
i have to clean up after wards.. *aww, ugh* lol
i just want a peaceful 21st yr old night!
(genie.. that's my wish! :D)
i just hope no throwing of cakes (please! :D)
yup anyways i hope they will like the catered food and
i hope they will enjoy themselves and not feel bored
because i have this feeling that it's gonna be
super awkward! yikes! i hate that but.. i shall erm
engage myself into my web of social connections!
(as much as i can!)
Yes as the title said.. im counting down days! hahah

Counting down to-
Mayday Concert: 18 days!
BDay: 25 days!

by the way isn't aladdin's bestfriend, genie? hahaha
my gosh if so.. this is it! i dressed up like an aladdin
during cny.. so on my bday.. "genie!! where u at?"
you just gotta make my wish come true!! hehe~
alright.. time to search for a suitable cake! :D
ahh wait! before i signout.. here is a song for the
Aladdin and Genie bromance theme!! ^^

SNSD- Genie

CNY Mood!!

2012-01-18T21:36:00.007+08:00

Yeah~ my one and only exam just ended today!!
so happy ^^ wanted to celebrate but the next thing is..
when i look at my schedule!! it's so full!
tmr.. this is my fully occupied schedule!!
1st: 7am fetch bro to sch
2nd: 11am finally time for myself..
gonna visit my hairdresser!
3rd: 2pm possibly fetch bro home..
4th: 12am gotta like count down to Friday.. and be at the
airport.. gosh! it's like err.. "hi stranger"
and so.. 2012 has been nice to me.
but since the chinese year has not been over yet..
I hope the Dragon year is gonna bless the people around me
Lately, the ones close to me are all in some troubles.
I hope the year of Dragon will change for the better!
恭喜發財! 年年有餘! 財源廣進! 身體健康!
事事順心! 行車平安! 家和萬事興! 心想事成!
hehe and 紅包拿來! hehehe :D
yeah~~ happy.. so im gonna catch up on the varitey show-
who's still standing on NBC.. nice!
love to see the seconds tickin' away!
yeah! im really gonna enjoy this year as much as possible!
as what Mayday says "you won't know by the end of 2012 if
you're still alive, but if we're.. don't forget you have
a second life! With our music, we will sail together towards
the future!" ohoh! what a good album actually!
i love the noah's ark theme! ^^
counting down-- 38 days towards my entrance to the ark!!
counting down-- 45 days towards my 21st! holycow!!
mang! still not sure wat to do on my 21st!
but i hope i can escape to somewhere~~
hehe for better, for worst. i know ive got to deal with
what is coming. ive been escaping from it for a long time.
my ultimate wish in this lifetime: i need learn to get that courage
out of my gut to express how i feel.(and im workin on that!)
:D okie and my holiday starts officially from now--

Hello 2012!

2012-01-01T00:58:00.001+08:00

Hello 2012!! Just drop by to give a new start of the year!! My head is soo heavy after a few drinks!! Don't wanna be the downer but I need to sleep now!

Those party people out there!! Happy new year!! 2012 is gonna blow your mind! :D Enjoy the sunrise! Imma turn in now~ :D good day, good night!

學不會

2011-12-09T22:00:00.002+08:00

最近大家都好像在競爭著看誰寫的詞曲
能表達最歇斯底里的感同身受..
那種頹廢又很有意境的感覺.. 嗯..
詞寫得雖簡單但是卻可以有很多种不同的意思
上個星期在聼張智成.. 這個星期換聼林俊傑
..有時候一首歌好像談一場戀愛
每一首歌能表達的意思都不同
在不同的情緒聼同一首歌意思也不一樣
所以我真的明白那學不會的感受..
有時候不是努力了就會百分之百學會一樣東西..
有些事情需要經歷一番刻骨銘心
才能理解所謂的學會
我想活到20嵗的我
覺得愛情真的是一件既又讓人很佩服的
羡慕的心疼的感人的也讓我學不會的..
我可以喜歡很多東西
可以喜歡很多食物，飲料，歌曲和歌手
我可以喜歡太多、太多了..
可是我只能愛一個人.
所以愛上了這個人
我更不了解愛情是甚麽..
若給了太多, 只害怕這是距離的開始.
若不大方的給, 只害怕我變成沒有感情的人.
承諾爲甚麽就不可以簡單一些好讓真正愛彼此的兩個人
不要再分開不管那距離有多遠?
我只希望那些在愛情裏的人
不管你是那個給太多，傷最深
還是被動的，被質疑沒有付出的..
請珍惜身邊那個最重要的人吧!
因爲不管你學不學得會..
一旦失去了或錯過機會了
問題不在于學不學得會而是他或許已經不屬於你的了
刻意去改變一個人是不可能的事
但是在愛情裏就可以把不可能的變可能.
有時候不可以等. 等久了, 就等於錯過了.
而我也希望大家不要《學不會》

金玉良言

2011-11-25T13:02:00.004+08:00

張智成- 金玉良言

作詞：彭學斌
作曲：彭學斌

在書店翻閱了一整天
在咖啡店和朋友聊了一整夜
文字語言佔滿心中每一層空間
就是填不滿你的缺

那麼多的道理在規勸
遺忘的方法似乎隨處都可見
愛情是否歷久彌堅
也像推銷員
好過不好過還得自己發現

說思念太丟臉說明天太冒險
除非我們還有機會破鏡重圓
想再約太隨便
痛言猶在耳邊
再見是最好的金玉良言

那麼多的道理在規勸
遺忘的方法似乎隨處都可見
愛情是否歷久彌堅
也像推銷員
好過不好過還得自己發現

說思念太丟臉說明天太冒險
除非我們還有機會破鏡重圓
想再約太隨便
痛言猶在耳邊
再見是最好的金玉良言

說天氣沒重點
說昨天太狂野
除非我們的事已經時過境遷
想問你的一切還是停在嘴邊
再見是最短的金玉良言
我們最好還是別再再見

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隨時閒這樣一飃就過去了
很快那份感動已經成過去
不知不覺地我們已經事過境遷
現在依舊是現在
只是我感覺不到原有的存在
有時候不說話變瞎猜
說了又讓人難過..
可是終于領悟到至少說了可以避免將來的心痛..
所以一次過心痛好過..
要疼好幾次才能領悟

就像小時候住過的地方和房子一樣..
很捨不得分開的我能留戀多久?
住過的家我還是搬出去了
爸媽曾經賣掉的房子也已經屬於別人了..
在怎麽思念我也要不回
房子雖然還在只是住在裏面的人不是我了..

人·比賽

2011-11-20T22:52:00.010+08:00

這種感覺就像是一只迷失的動物跟一群莫名其妙的人正在比賽著..
比甚麽呢？就說我是一只在沙漠裏迷了路的駱駝
站在炎熱的太陽下我看見一群人朝我的方向奔來
原來在我身後有兩壺水大家正在競爭著看誰會先得到那兩壺水
其實我倒覺得這些人有沒有想過這兩壺水也會有感受？
大家光搶著喝它.. 可是它想讓你喝嗎?
那麽身為駱駝的我雖然不急著要喝水
但是就覺得人是個很莫名其妙的動物..
簡單的說如果世上的人可以多自我反省、自我檢討
常常把別人放在眼裏、常常把自己放進別人的處境去想
我想人就不會因此而自我殘殺..
人啊人我們最後還是人比賽的光輝只是一時的,不是一世的..
你不可能把獎盃也帶到閻羅王那邊吧? 有些東西還是要留在人間啊..
所以把自己搞得遍體鱗傷的人啊.. 真的有這個必要嗎?

11.11.11

2011-11-11T23:15:00.003+08:00

lol hmm it's quite a celebration indeed!
everyone ard me is so into this!
=D weddings, all the anniversary events
woah =D lol my bro even came home and told
me that it's a *i miss u* day? o.O?

=D alrighty just hope people around the world
whoever is missing whoever, i hope your
message was sent through! =D
may happiness be with you eternally =)

zzz there's a class tmr..
sighz.. it's 9am and i guess i need to
turn in soon! =)
happy 11.11.11! =)
may people be more courteous tmr?
=) alrighty good night aliencity~

The Wishy Washy Wednesday

2011-11-02T22:39:00.005+08:00

... i dunno what to say..
but sch started.. and it's quite amazing to say
i was not expecting the class size to be so huge..
cause i can only hear them chatting all the way
but the lecturer.. she has to keep her voice for
her main work.. and such part time job is pretty
much who cares >.<" but she was mumbling away..
well, it's not her fault because everyone is tired..

but seriously, now im trying to recall what
she said in class.. i can only remember her mouth
moving but no voice is coming out of it..
similar to matrix i guess? everything was slowed down..
omg.. im super tired.. and can i ask why on earth
do people drive so fast at night??

when i was driving home.. a bunch of passenger cars
overtake me ... im driving at legal speed
but whenever they see lorries, vans and trucks
they just overtake.. grr..
this place is too hectic.. i really didn't expect
my home country to turn out this way..
so disappointed that my memory of this country was
so different from the reality..

i seriously miss the 20th century.. when Singapore
was just quieter.. more spacious and possibly
even more fresh air to breathe! every now and then..
it's getting harder to breathe here.. as if even
oxygen is something to grab.. i dun feel that harmony
i used to feel.. is everybody going crazy?
am i the one who sees it? why does the current issue
doesn't seems to bother anyone?

everyone is showing their
"I AM CORRECT, I AM THE BOSS and YOU ARE WRONG" face..
seriously.. why so much anger, aggressions,
frustrations and un-forgiveness? dont tell me that
you're just following the norm.. because you can
simply choose not to follow.. if someone give way..
appreciate it and not take advantage of it..
life is short.. dont wait until the day you were
diagnosed with cancer or some stupid fatal disease
and then say you'll pray to god for healing..
oh gosh.. if you ever treasured what you have..
there is nothing to fear becos you have one less regret
in this world.. you know you're accomplished..

and that is why the last two words from Steve Jobs
was "Oh Wow".. because he prolly had gone to a place
where he belongs to.. with all the high technologies
waiting for him.. he is more than accomplished with an
intelligent mind..

okay.. done with all thatwishy washy wednesday..
im preparing for thursday.. and please dun rain tmr..
cos i need to drive to the busiest street of Singapore..
oh peace~~

Mixed Mash Mooing Monday

2011-10-23T21:41:00.007+08:00

Anyways.. im here because school's reopening tmr!!
gosh.. it's my bro's last week of school and it's
my reopening week.. many of the secondary 4's are
taking their O level's tmr.. best of luck for them! =)
Especially 2 of my cousins! :D
but right now im tryin to make sense of this..

how on earth did my holiday just swift passed again??
and it's going to be an interesting sem since im only
taking 1 module, so that I can focus when im going for
my 1 week get away.. >.<"
seriously! can't wait for my sweet escape to come!
it's my turn to take a break..

i admit i really can't stay in one place for too long
im always wanting to see the world before it's too late
well, just hope i can make it round the world :)
anyways gonna sit in for a lecture i did not
sign up for tmr.. pretty weird (i know) looking for
more opportunities for the best option this sem!

when im finally earnin' my own living.. imma drop a pin
in google's map and go to where ever it takes me for my
next destination! to fulfil that.. i'll really have to
work so many times harder than a guy >.<" dang i know
right.. racism is an issue.. sexism is another ..
i just don't understand why females are tend to be
smaller build in size?! I really crave for equal power.
lol, guy's gonna hate this so much but seriously...
uh uh.. = =" im waiting to see the day when females
dominates the world and overthrow those concepts that
ain't true.. after all, who says female can't be a boss?
look who's calling mama? -_-" no hate! just love!!

gogogo! a long marathon to go~
here i come mooing monday---

靠山山倒，靠人人跑，靠自己最好.

2011-10-13T22:36:00.003+08:00

最近在無聊的很無聊所以才很空閒嘛.. lol
最近有一部偶像劇: 《我可能不會愛你》
由林依晨和陳柏霖主演!
他們的對手戯還不錯! :D
尤其沒想到林依晨居然會演淑女的角色! 哈哈哈
超級不像當年那個傻乎乎的袁湘琴~~
追到第四集了，發現在朋友與愛情裏的掙扎裏，
或許程又青說了一句俗話是最棒的!
所謂的靠山山倒，靠人人跑，靠自己最好!
這句話很現實.. 有時候一些人注定會遇到貴人但是
反而有些人注定沒有貴人相助..
那麽這些人就只好靠自己的實力，證明給自己看啦!
其實沒有貴人的協助，我還是可以自己熬過去!
所以說靠到別人很麻煩..
因爲你永遠不會知道他讓你依靠是否另有目的..
你永遠不知道他笑著說沒關係時，是否會在你背後說你的是非
..我寧願少了這些有的沒的.. 過著消辛苦的日子
也不要讓別人瞧不起! 雖然心裏不應該詛咒別人..
但是我的良心過意不去.. 我覺得這世界已經病得很嚴重..
但是沒有人願意改啊.. 去哪改?
大家不會為別人着想，只會認爲自己是對的..
好吧! 老實講，如果還有人問我爲什麽獨來獨往..
其實這並不是我想要的.. 只是我周圍一直遇不到貴人..
遇不到一個像李大仁這樣的人..
那麽我也只好靠自己.. 其實，靠自己沒有什麽不好的
我反而覺得這樣很好，用另一個角度去看世界..
這樣也是一種美吧! 這不是每一個人都能懂得欣賞的美! =)

My Favourite Fruit: Apple!

2011-10-06T08:42:00.013+08:00

Mang so I woke up this mornin feeling just awkward..
as if something unpleasant was about to happen..
so who knew when I look at the news and twitter..
everywhere's flooded with the news that
Apple's Co-founder Steve Jobs had passed!
gosh.. i thought it was some prank at first.. but
the reality is just the way it is..
sighz, i've always look up upon him after being
introduced by my form teacher back in 2004!
that was when i first gotten my ibook g4!
and guess what? it's still working well with me! =)

As the years passed by, different generations of
ipod came to life. And I've gotten the last of its
white and black series of the ipod 5th generation!
6 years on & it is still working perfectly! =)
The improvision of Macbook.. was also the best
i will ever have in this lifetime! that compact
laptop showed its ability to perform so many things
at once and even bootcamp for both mac and windows
of course later linux (ubuntu) was also integrated.
how useful it was to be able to generate 2 different
os in 1? of course thanks to intel core 2 duo for
that to happen!

As Apple progress further the newer gens like
ipod touch, macbook air and ipads and not to be
forgotten iphones, all these were the rise of apple!
Although im not that rich to possibly own every new
gadgets but if you had never tried an Apple's product,
you'll never understand how powerful it is..
Speaking of the usefulness and not some tools that
people use it just to show off thinking that
they're damn rich.. uh uh.. no that's not it!
Moreover, from that big apple shaped mac to what we
have today as a flat lcd screen in what ever inches
you name it!

It was just sad to say that losing someone that had
so much potential and probably had foresee the future
technology.. woah nothing more could be said already..
Gone too soon, really want another decade or two of
your work collections!
I really respect Steve Job's creation! He sorta
made my dreams came true? Whatever I possible had in
mind when I was a kid.. those fascinating multi-functioning
gadgets, super cool graphics and wireless connections, apps..
super effective touch screen system.. etc etc!
oh mang.. i hope Apple would keep its design like this!
It's difficult to find something of constant these days!

I will never forget my first personal laptop it was
an apple with a bite on it! =) Thank you Steve Jobs for
creating such an incredible technology! You'll be deeply
missed by many, many, too many people! May you rip.

4.10.2011

2011-10-04T21:07:00.006+08:00

hihihi my dear blog!! so im having my break frm sch!
lately.. i've been catchin' a couple of movies haha
(psps. must say that i ain't saving money! ah no good!)
after watchin' johnny english with my brother last Friday
today.. my mum and i went to catch 1911 the movie!
wow, although my mum remember slightly of the revo..
i thought it was a neat work there!
just that the war parts and exaggerated scenes were
in my opinion more nc-16 than pg-13.. hmph and
it wasn't 1 hr 45 mins show but 2 hrs?! lol
so there were some misunderstandin' in between.

however! lately the korean wave has kinda flow
into my house! hahahah ive been bangin korean music
day in, day out. in my house, in the gym & in my car!
muahahah and most songs were from big bang and 2ne1!!
hey hey! sad to say I just finish the 2ne1 tv season 3
episode 14!! aww.. as much as they did not want to
stop filming it, im also hoping there will be a
season 4!! and yes! i see how hardworking they're!
CL was losing her voice while returnin' to Korea

As much as i will miss Dara's tam-tami and dadoong!
Bom's button and choco!
Minzy's dougie!
CL's Rilakkuma!! fav chants: gogogo! & 2ne1 nolza!
oh mang! although i don't even know them in person!
but their short stories touched me =) im sure those
2ne1 fans out there are feeling the same! =)
Just wanna say thank you for working so hard
to produce quality music for us!! ^^
no matter what you all are doing right now, 2ne1 fighting!

lol so hmm hopefully there're some more plans comin'
in my schedule -_-" can't deny i feel lonely sometimes
because after the tv, there's an xbox. After the xbox,
there's a laptop. After the laptop, there's family.
After family, there's responsibilit(ies).
After the yada yada.. I feel empty haiz..
this is prolly what happens when u spent your most impt years
outside of your home country.. everything just feels different
with little friends & strangers everywhere..
sometimes it feels good to be unknown but sometimes
when the loneliness is.. just so difficult to comprehend..
that is where many people don't or won't understand,
unless you've been through. if not i guess you might
just have to hold it to yourself with those very weird
stares that people give because sometimes humans do forget
to smile when we're lost. lost in something simple,
yet difficult to get out of.
hmm any words to sum that up? hmm not so sure +_+..

oh well, as what the elders always tell me
you dont have to be afraid because you're a young survivor!
you just prolly understands what loneliness is more than
the age you;re supposed to understand. and that is ok!
because at some point in life you'll still have to go
through it. no one can be with anyone forever.
so love only exist in this one life time :D
if the timing's right, don't let them go! =)
yada yada! im a young survivor! im optimistic in life!

im just waiting passionately for that one day where..
it's my turn to shine! i've never been more sure than
how im feeling right now. so if it is really written
in my fate, i wish to get my family's understanding!
i know this shell that's protecting me gotta break..
it's just sooner or later. i just hope in my lifetime
i get to make one important decision that is what i wanna
become. -_-" oh wow didn't knew i wrote so long!
but peace out!~~

追夢!! 3DNA!

2011-09-16T21:40:00.004+08:00

説來話長，原本沒有想到這電影只會上映這麽 4天的時間！
也太短了吧！可是我做了一件倔強是讓我這一生都不會後悔的事！
我訂票和表妹去看在新加坡的第一場！哇！超級感動的！
聯合音樂和人生的點點滴滴，雖然就那一個半小時的時間，
這是多麽自豪的一個半小時啊！如果今天考試都結束。。
我想我會比現在更high!

今天雖然遇到了一點挫折，我希望這是追夢的開始。。
太多時候說比做還難。。我希望這輩子追逐一個夢想。
我那個永遠都不想變老的心，希望永遠能帶著那搖滾的心直到我消失！
哈哈 :D 生命就是要去體驗吧！

從剛出生的嬰兒到頑皮的小孩，
到青春的呐喊與成熟的戀愛，到生老或病死。
我感謝我能存在這世上。
我們常常要換一個環境、國家、想法才能理解所謂的存在吧！
所以此刻不要想那麽多。。考試要到了！啊~~ :D

[人生都太短暫
別想別怕別後退
現在就是永遠
------------
人生都太短暫
去瘋去愛去浪費
和我再唱 OA~OAOA]

沒有什麽事比不珍惜自己的生命來的更重要！
今晚就放過自己解壓吧！
OA~OA~OA~OA~ 爽! =D

奶茶!

2011-08-12T22:12:00.004+08:00

ahh it's been 3-4 months since i last drank a bubble tea!!
i remember trying to get gong cha outside scape..
but nv got the chance.. tbh i really liked coco 奶茶!!
.. it's all over taiwan and china. but why not singapore??
>.<" ive been craving for coco 奶茶 for 2 years alr..
haiz.. maybe gong cha is good.. imma try to get it..
hopefully this month i can get a taste of it.
then i know how different it tastes from coco 奶茶 =D
hoho tmr i can finally take out the p-plate!! ^^
hahah im no longer on probation! =D
once again, drive safely everyone~
hmm maybe i shld really go get a bubble tea..
to celebrate driving for a year^^
anyways 貢茶!! im finally coming for you.. psps
after sooo long .. i finally cannot resist u..
from all the tweets i saw everyday
from my friends and cousins gong cha here, gong cha there..
wa tmr is the day!! i can't wait haha hopefully
it's worth the wait!! wa 4 months without bubble tea
hee how did i survived without it..
remembered i had a very special relationship with coco 奶茶
it was a winter (again >.<").. i was alone while
my mum and bro went to visit my dad in another province..
so my lunch and dinner was a cup of bubble tea..
since it was winter.. i remembered the bubble tea was warm
i was sitting home drinking that for lunch and dinner
wow.. so nostalgic :D part of my survival list!
i will never forget the existence of bubble tea :D
i love bubble tea ^^.. ahh gong cha im coming for u~~

雪候鳥

2011-07-23T21:41:00.002+08:00

The title.. hmm nothing much was listening to this song.
Suddenly, I remembered my mum said my chinese name was
sung in this song.. so I went to listen.. and to my surprise..
the lyrics was "死灰" and i was like err yup that sound like my name!
ya la it sound like 思慧!
>.<" anyways while i was listenin to this song..
i felt the winter chills.. i dunno why but yes.. this song was
perfectly melancholy.. if you really think you had amnesia..
listen to this song and think again..
prolly you'll be using a box of tissue instead.. haha exaggerate

Don't know why im particularly interested in songs like this..
songs that had the underline meaning "waiting".. waiting and
waiting.. and endlessly waiting for an answer that will have
no answer to it.. oh wells never been in love, never been through
big losses.. possibly i haven't been so traumatised
yet, i can relate.. ask myself why so many times..
but i just feel things more intensely .. which is bad?
all i know is that from young my parents and teachers and friends..
they all told me the same thing...

that is why are you so moody? weak? soft? kind? as if i know?
well, if i knew i think i would hide it away from you than
to listen to this over and over again?
dunno.. lately im lacking of passion.. lacking of being..
lacking of love.. lacking of feeling.. lacking of living..
lacking of knowing.. lacking of learning.. lacking of understanding..
lacking of meaning.. lacking of interest.. lacking of motivation..
im lacking so many things that seem so hard to reach.

where some people out there took their lives just to lack a shelter.
lack a meal, lack of money, lack of status, lack of power..
their lives seem to be so much difficult than mine
yet, i can't seem to overcome that small obstacle compared to them.

if 8 years ago.. i did not leave, where will i be?
will things be better? will i be whole?
Each place that i go i leave a piece of puzzle.
now.. im really missing each and every piece of them.
without the puzzle pieces.. i'll never be whole.
just like the migratory birds.. never to stay at a place
because they're always searching for the past place..
where it cannot be found again. but the migratory birds never
give up they're willing to spend their lives searching..
just for that one place.
may i spend my life just to search for that one place.

我們知足嗎？

2011-07-04T20:08:00.003+08:00

或許真的有如他們說的一樣到了一個階段，到了一個時期，
明白和懂事就這樣突然的在你腦裏醒悟了。
說要我恨，我相信這世上一定會有人辦得到。。
但是恐怕，傷人的話總是說的太快。。其實要恨一輩子，我辦不到。
隨著時間，我成長了。。很多事情都處境在一個左右爲難的困境裏面
我們都需要面對，都需要勇氣做選擇。當然很多事情並沒有選擇。

或許我們做晚輩的是否能團結把原有的夢想創造成更好的社會、世界。。
雖然我們的父母都熬過去了其實換作是我們活在他們的童年
我們體會不到也應該有所理解吧
知足，這是如此簡單的兩個字。我們能不能停下腳步，放下手中的作業
看看周圍的事物。。看看鏡子前的你。
你會發現，在忙忙碌碌之中的你已經不如往常快樂，不如往常年少。
你會發現，時間已經偷偷的在你身邊奔過。要怎麽去追？

這觀念。。倒不如讓我們問問自己要怎麽去改善生活的忙碌，給自己一些時間
重新認識自己，找回年少時的夢想一一去實現他們。。把人生填滿，不留一絲遺憾。
這樣知足的活下去，煩惱不就自然消失，輕鬆和快樂不就自然而然在你身邊嗎？
朋友啊，或許我們想時間還長。。可是知足和珍惜
是我們現代人應該學著了解的，一旦醒悟了。煩惱自然少，内心裏的快樂就會湧出來。
做好自己的本分，做好自己的責任，不要追求奢華，這些只會讓你越陷越深。
不了解別人，沒關係，不要得罪別人。要緊的是了解自己。
希望有一天這城市會明白人類是有情的過於追求完美無暇的只會讓自己筋疲力盡，
提早老化。。想要活的長久。關鍵在自己。。自己願意給自己多少快樂。

金錢能用今生，卻不能買一世。快樂能用今生，也能傳好幾世。
快樂無價，保持樂觀!

Year 3 Starts Early!

2011-06-29T20:18:00.002+08:00

hmm so i started my year 3.. im 1 trimester ahead..
fingercrossed i don't have to remodule this sem
so that i can cont' this pace lol..

oh wells it's goin' to be hectic again.. (as usual)..
3101 stats have 2 presentations to overcome.. *puke*
3103 psychopathology's tutorial.. is full with more than
25 students?? = =" wtf.. seriously, it was the admin's fault..
i signed up for the correct tutorial, and so did my friend..
and it happened that both of us was listed in the wrong tutorial..
when it shouldn't; now im uncertain if im going
to stay in this tutorial hopefully i can..

zzz so here we go again! my journey sets sail!
peace out!

Mr. Popper's Penguin! =D

2011-06-17T21:53:00.004+08:00

alrighty so i was wondering this afternoon
whether or not should i watch popper.
now i can tell you that i shld'nt hv doubt Jim Carrey!
holly cow! he's just one great comedian in this century!
pretty much modern to start with.
you can understand even deeper if you had
grew up with single parenting.
oh wells a very muscle relaxing movie for everyone.
very family oriented i do recommend the parents
to watch it with their children =) sure i do hear some kids
laughing their asses off in the theatre O.O =p

so yup i enjoyed this show very much and im definitely
looking forward to my weekends :D aw what a good start!
i dont usually find penguins that fascinating not even
happy feet.. hmph but after popper.. im gettin the hang of it
=) yea everyone have a happy popper weekend! :D
and i should catch up with hang over 2 soooon~

Prawn Catching @ Punggol =D

2011-06-15T22:50:00.004+08:00

:D so today, want to thank my cousin and her bf
for accompanying me and my bro to the prawn catching area
so i would expect my bro to give me tantrums and all tt
unnecessary nonsense, to my surprise he did not.. and i was
pretty much happy that i could spend some quality time with him
we caught 7 prawns!! even though it is expensive for $30/hr..

all the times my parents or i shall say most Singaporean's
parents neglect their children because of work and their
children do not grow up with what the current aging adults
viewed as "childhood" seriously how do they define childhood?
and how do we define childhood? They are very different.

The adults worked so hard to give us a better life etc.
just because they did not have the opportunity to live
the luxurious and wealthy lifestyle.. but are we doing it
right? or are we just paper chasing? and could sacrifice
just for the sake of status and pride and not happiness?
but as the generation goes.. what do we want?
sometimes its not that complex..
we just want love and attention from you!
so is it that difficult to take some time off work for
your growing children? shouldn't they experience what
you've seen in your childhood days? shouldn't they spend
more time with the nature than some artificial manmade
accompany? there's just so many questions to why can't
they just get off work.. is the society so competitive
that even a manager level parent can't get a day off
for their children?

do you really want to live with despairity?
im not sure how to wake these aging adults as..
you will need the same love and attention frm your children.
i promise sooner or later. do you want to be treated the
same way where you'll be neglected by them?
sent to torturing old folks homes?
is this what you really want for the very last years of
your life? im really not sure what is going on.

but at least im making the effort to install some
memories of fun into my bro's last years of childhood
before the teenager enters and i know he'll change.
at least there's a part in him thats humane
i really cant imagine the day where we dont need to
use our mouth to communicate.. what kind of world
will that be? i really dont wish to see that coming.

i just hope that we can take a look back at the 90's
when we aren't crazy over something that we lost our
humanity.. it's that one thin line that we choose between
humanity or insanity.
peace out!

=) Half Way!

2011-05-28T23:26:00.004+08:00

Yeah man! so today's my first day into the holidays!
hmm loads of things changes within half a yr to a yr's time..
a yr ago from today.. im still learning how to drive..
a yr ltr today.. im already experience with 1 accident
hmm wat will happen to me next yr? (sometimes i wonder)
but im happy for what im achieving and accomplishing!
and i have to say i really dont have time to dwell on my emotions..
my goal in life: strive to the very end! endure!!
i want to save, i want to wait, i want to spend when the time is right!
i will eventually show those who had ever doubt my success.
here im to say im half way there! im gonna pick it up
and never say never!
no matter how crazy that obstacle is, im gonna fight!!
i need to overcome many many things, but im sure this is the process..
the process of acknowledging my existance!
just wait, give me a decade's time. i'll fulfill them. step by step.
im proud to say im half way there!

This is Life

2011-05-16T12:17:00.008+08:00

Lookin' at the news today, brought me back to thoughts
on how to save a life.
We were all made to this world not giving a chance
to say if we wanted it.
So does that mean that we should take a chance
to say we don't want it?
After all that long years that you've
strived so hard to reach?
Not long ago, i was in such deep shit as well.
Moreover, i was in a foreign land, thousand miles,
oceans apart from home. Friends of mine, come and go,
i couldn't even think about we'll stick together till
the very last days of ours.
Relationship for me was never good as well,
not to even mention my family was broken
after i stayed in this foreign land..
I was alone as well. No relatives anywhere near me,
friends who basically want the benefit out of me when needed.
teachers usually look upon gifted students..
(it's been like this all the while!)
my parents basically don't give a care even though
we were living under one roof.. i hardly see my old man..
my mum goes for her leisures, i have a 7 yrs younger bro
to look after, with poor resources left for me..
I can remember it was winter, it was cold.
There was no electricity, there was no water..
my bro and i were waiting for mum's return..
those days.. i can never imagine myself living in such
conditions if i was back home..
sometimes, when we're living in good a life, our thoughts
became very self-centered.. only you can pressurise
yourself, what other's say doesn't matter to you..
your body, your life is all under your own control
a life may not be as precious as you may think,
but a life is definitely fragile..
don't throw away your hard work within sec of thought..
we've all come so far.. i never say it was easy.
it's just how you try to make your own life better.
never will others make it better for you.
follow what your heart wants, try to fulfill it
but never let it get in a way that leads you to an end.
search for things that could entertain you..
trust me, i find myself hard to station down in a field..
so, im saving loads of money now.. just to see the world
in my very near future! when you really learn the
meaning of life.. it doesn't matter if you're alone or not
cause even if you're alone, you'll enjoy the company
of yourself.. you don't need others to make it better.
=) no matter you're a loner or a person lucky enough
to have big group of friends.
live today like there's no tomorrow! =) hehe
work hard but dont let stress get to you..
play hard but dont go haywire
club hard but dont blackout
what ever you do, just stay alive!
got problems? im here!
maybe sometimes floating in the ocean,
but call my name! and i'll be your 911 =)
nothing is unsolvable, you just need to take a step back
replot, replan, you'll reach the destination!
Your life is on your own hands, take a memorable journey!
peace out! =)

Our Current Singapore

2011-05-09T14:08:00.002+08:00

*Erm first and foremost this is nothing to do with politics..

Just my honest opinions and what's my view in Singapore for my 20 years of life..*

Well, there was a taxi uncle that inspired me to

give a thought about my dear country's future..

He was not very happy about the pap taking over potong pasir.

i asked why? he said Mr. Sitoh was not capable due to his easy going features, he prefered Mr. Chiam and candidates who are more outspoken.

However, he lead to Mr. Yeo's loss at the Aljunied grc.. which was much understandable, since we're loosing a voice from the minister of foreign affairs.

But I am glad that I was able to tell him a personal story told in a third person view that "uncle, you should know that we in Singapore are very fortunate."

We do not need to bare a country's needs and blames and opinions over our shoulders.
We're just a citizen yet, we're very carefree.

Maybe Im only 20, maybe I don't understand what had happened in the developing days of Singapore, but give it a look, we've come so far. It was the pap who actually started it all. But after this election, with a heart at young, im hoping for the better, im hoping for change. and quote from President Obama "yes, we can!" im hoping that if the pap wants to continue to serve us better, they should take this election and review what can be done. Singapore is small, but this small little country is full of hope. I think that none of us want to see all of our grandparents and parents hard work go to the drain in the next few decades.

I hope for change. I was born here, I have been around the world, I have seen and understand how lucky I am to be a Singaporean. I am thankful for what I am and who I've become. I just hope, in the near future, Singaporeans can understand that we're actually united as one. Status is nothing without a start of a hardship, we should always be thankful that we've come so far.

Sometimes, its just a matter of mindset that brings us off track and demand further especially when Singapore is by far the safest country that I can stay out late at night and still reach home safely. & my most humbled and honest opinion is that Singapore should bring back the courtesy behaviour. Because our society had changed, our standard of living increases, more and more Singaporeans are richer, we live for the status and not humanity anymore. The first step is change, that's all we need. Nothing is impossible, the only impossibility is you dont give it a try. Give ourselves a chance to make things better. A chance is all it takes to make a change.

peace out

Inevitable Invincible

2011-04-15T13:25:00.003+08:00

=) yesterday i was just wishing myself luck for the today's test.
today.. i got into a car accident.. im really grateful that
the motorcyclist is able to walk just a bruise on his left arm.
thank god it was not fractured.. so i spent an hour waiting
for more and more white shirt people to come and
meanwhile i was feeding mosquitoes.. sighz.. car got scratched
and dented moreover my tyres were punctured.. >.<
great.. nothing is that serious but i just dont feel right.
every time im so close to knocking on death's door..
it's like how many times will i be so lucky?
and why do i have to involve other people?
i wonder how long more.. im getting very troubled lately..
I feel like dropping out??
i dont know where to seek help.. i dunno who can save me.
i survived alone 2003-2009.. i thought it would be easier now..
but reality is that "it" never goes away.. i feel haunted.
haunted with passed memories, how do i overcome and move on?
can i always get away from mistakes? no.. but why are my mistakes
always so huge? so inevitable? so sudden? so invincible?
what if that motorcyclist died there? i can never ever forgive myself..
life is not a something to play and fool around..
we've got a reason and purpose here.. i cannot imagine how the world
had changed into such a remorseless place..
how can you not feel remorse for actions you've done singaporeans?
i cannot imagine i'm part of a heartless group of people..
i cannot believe it..
hours passed.. it's lunchtime now.. and im still in shock..
i've still got lots of things to do.. i need to march on for now..
and i need to take a holiday....

The Script & More!!

2011-04-14T23:39:00.006+08:00

Hmm, Im supposed to be staring at the ppt. slides
cause tmr i hv a quiz.. But im here to write a short one..
so far my ty's been a little normal haha. shall say
waves come and go, when you think you're riding on the low tide..
next the high tide is coming after you.
life never gets easier as it goes. no doubt .
everyday im preparing myself for up coming obstacles.
and yes sometimes i do feel like
im the only soldier left on a battlefield.
where most of the others are not on the same path as me.
sometimes, you just got to fight for your own stand.
i am who i am. i refuse to be one of them. therefore, im different.
我脆弱，卻永不退縮！
just really want to point out something..
throughout my highschool years.. 2003-2009 it was nv smoothed
and i am thankful that im still here writing this.
as those people who had mocked, bullied, fake smiles,
back stabbing,refused to help well all those nasty things.
thank you for letting me know that im really on earth ..
and that not all people had to go through this rough phase of life.
yes, it is not easy to stop teenagers from bullying when
"peer-pressure" and self-esteem, the norms and "fitting in"..
all these are just one powerful thing at that point of time.
But if you're the one who's receiving the abuse,
seek for help immediately. don't put it all in your heart,
that's not good for your psychological health.
if you're the bully, try to understand why you wanna give
your "targets" a hard time, do they really deserve
that treatment & abuse? what if you were the victim yourself?
last but not least, come on we're all humans we have feelings.
if your friend gets bullied, do you run away?
or do you stick up for him/ her? or do you
seek for more by standers help?
bullying is not fun, the victims will know best.
if you're a by stander.. dont run away,
at least show some love even if
you need to seek more by standers help.
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However, the script's one night only
concert in Singapore was awesome!
Went with Shakthi, though with the rain, mud and weirdos around.
It was still an awesome night of 2011!
Their songs are still spinning in my head!
The Script is just one fine band that will
reassure you that you're not the only one who feels that way =)
sure i dont feel so nothing after all and life dont breakeven!
hahax alrighty, that's all from me!
peace out! n good luck for my quiz tmr!

Im Officially In My Ty's Now!

2011-03-03T17:15:00.007+08:00

lol so.. hmm i had finally said good bye to my Teen's life.
This mornin' was so awkward..
there was this woman who parked so near my car..
she ended up was my lecturer for Human Development.. omg..
the whole awkwardness keeps lasting until i finally fled from sch..
gosh.. dunno what more to say.. then i did something really
stupid as well.. i climbed from the passenger seat to the driver's
so that i can adjust the car further away..
sighz.. just say that i kinda envy at a same time feel really terrible
for ppl who drive SUVs.. come on.. i know you ppl got big cars
but the law never says that you can basically bully small cars >.<
oh well.. maybe in future i will have to get a bigger car
if im going to station here forever..
(which sometimes i wonder, will i?)
im so lost from who im.. and im gettin the feeling that im suppose
to move from places to places. and im safe to say it all started
since i was 1 yr old..
im already roaming the world with my parents..
maybe that's why i can't commit..
maybe that's why i can't stay at a place.
but deep down inside i want to..
just that i'll run whenever i want to..
so i guess i'll have to live with it.
hmm i want to thank all people
who did or did not wish me happy birthday.
lol i understand =). just felt really, really amazed that friends
from primary schools were the first few to send me greetings!
you know what? im actually
very delighted inside of me that
"hey, they have not forgotten about me!" after soo long! my gosh
been more than a decade! 1 greeting change things,
at least i know that the friendships that were
built at the age of 7 was all worthwhile!
Though we dont speak like we were at 7,
but that bond of friendship is what i view as friends! =)
once in awhile, you still have that memory of me,
that shadow of us. though you dont say it out loud,
it's good enough, i understand =) Good bye 19, Hello 20!

林俊傑: 她說- 簽唱會

2011-02-12T16:00:00.008+08:00

=D This was taken place at the Heeren.
Was super fun trying to go myself independently.
As I was waiting, chatted with some erm JJ fans,
they were very nice people as well. One of them reminds
me of my mum.. She was a very nice lady and mother.

They came all the way from the West of Singapore just for
her Secondary 2 daughter. The daughter did not know where
the JJ event was at yet, her mum was also half frustrated
and half willing to help her daughter. Well this trait really
relates to my mum. Oh well, at least I know that this is
part of growing =). Her mum was a very good communicator
once she feels comfortable with you, she chatted an hour
with me and another JJ fan =D.

Oh well, a good experience after all. =)
I am brave enough to queue myself said those JJ fans hahas.
Hmm my theory is that you come to this world alone, bare
with nothing. What more can you take with you when you leave
this world? It's not the wealth, health or knowledge.
I believe it's memories. Whether they were sweet or bitter.

However, got the JJ's surprise gift. It was from Kiehl's
some cosmetic product i presume? =) hahas good enough
oh yup those lucky JJFC first 1000 ppl get to go Scape tmr..
haiz im not qualified to go in the JJ Party 5.. so i guess can't
hear him sing again.. didn't get to hear it today too because
i was either too far away from the entrance or no one reliable
to queue for me.. haiz how i wish my mum was there as well =)
but anyhow, it's good to learn to be independent.

yup i got 2 photos to share.. quite blurry.. hmm blame it on
the lousy focus of my iphone 3gs.. but yup cool enough =)

oh yup if you had already seen it on my twitter
hahax yup only manage to snap 1 on the spot because it was
kinda chaotic for some reasons.. and yup i just took the
signed album photo.. so it's like 2am now and blame it
on the phone again.. no flash so it's like a little scary >.<"
but yup just for those who are curious,
the 改版 is up in the market.. if you havent bought the
first edition.. here's your chance to get the 改版..
it looks better with erm 她說 MV in one DVD
erm about 2-3 discs there i guess =)

To conclude the day, 天下的媽媽都是一樣地 =) though they like to
nag alot sometimes, but they are very soft inside.
Near to most mothers on earth will always fight their best
for their child's needs. Some just provide it in a different way.
(Of course this theory doesn't suit the fathers, and don't ask
me why). So yup always remember to love and treasure your
mums since they are still alive =) and yup im very happy to meet
such friendly people that are easy to talk with today especially
given such an autograph session. maybe that one hour of wait
was a payoff just spending and talking about life?
and yes this is what im saying. 她說·我說.

害怕

2011-02-06T20:40:00.002+08:00

我從來沒有害怕失去一樣東西害怕成這樣。。

但是啊聲音和聽力是我最不想失去的。。這個不可以沒關係啊..

最近唱歌不如往常。。我很懷疑到底發生什麽事。。

以前同樣的唱法不至於聲音會一段一段的。。

現在唱一句有時候會不見一些音。。

頭痛啊。。有歌手碰過這樣的情形嗎？

他們都是唱太多才聲帶發炎等等。。

但是我哪裏有唱太多？！只是在家裏會哼哼歌曲而以嘛！

哇不爽啦。。失去聲音真的是很害怕的事。。

上帝賜給我們一個嘴巴是爲了說心裏話

但是我總是說錯話所以什麽話都不說比較好只有唱歌才開嘴巴比較好

上帝賜給我們一雙耳朵是爲了聼心裏話

但是我總是聼錯話所以什麽話都不聼比較好只有聼歌才開耳朵比較好

所以歌手們的挫折是這樣的話。。我在此刻感受的到。。

想要把最好的呈獻給歌迷但是聲音不再水準之上真的很煩心。。

希望我的聲音可以回來。。不要再一段一段了。。

希望我的肺也沒有事。。

我在想你的時候睡著了 =)

2011-02-01T18:09:00.006+08:00

今天才發現這首歌的原唱不是仔仔哈哈但是仔仔詮釋的比較好聽啦..
mojo樂團沒有要吐槽的意思啦 =)
我昨晚看了《愛你一萬年》超級好看的！除夕夜想再看一遍 =)
尤其是這部戯搞笑又能哭得稀里嘩啦的兩种情緒一直被釋放很好笑 =)
一個人能勇敢因爲他有動力去變勇敢而只要兩個人的心是在一起的..
想要說的也是一樣的 =D 那麽緣分這兩個字其實我也不相信啦..
但是 =) hehe 我還是來推廣一下這首歌 =)
當我在想念的時候盡量會聼這首歌這樣也比較容易睡覺啦 =)
仔仔演技又進步了！=) 加油加油！一起加油進步進步步步高升！

--我在想你的時候睡著了--

今天晚上你又讓我牽掛
你不太願意讓我知道你在幹嘛
太多情緒也許讓你徬徨
請不要擔心快點回到我的身旁

我在想你的時候睡著了
我在想你的時候牽掛著
我在想你的時候猶豫著
我在想你的時候失望了

Do You Wanna Have It All?

2011-01-28T10:13:00.007+08:00

woah yesterday night i was most prolly browsing youtube listenin'

to some of Jesse's new album songs oh well they were live versions

of the song.. but good enough for me to think that the stereo

album would be awesome!! i thought mrs. mistake was kinda cool

kept repeating it last night.. it was like a matured version of

it's over.. i have no idea why i kept telling myself that..

it inspired me to write a bunch of lyrics.. which i did.. and

i named it "mixed signals" hahah i haven't compose the music to it..

but im sure when the tune comes out, i'll give the lyrics

a final polish and whoop! oh well today gonna say goodbye to my

blonde hair.. aww i'll missed it so much! it brought me so many

adventures.. wish i could keep it but i can't deny that im asian

after all >.<" ha.. soo yes i do wanna have it all!! hahah

can't wait for Jesse's new album to be out..

i love Departure but i might love Have it All more! =D
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Later today.. so now im really missing the blonde look!! ahh

=( i really wished i was ang moh! >.< now my new hair look

haiz.. looks like a carrot! orangey feeling well suits the

theme year i guess.. the food for rabbit = =" super ermm

aiya nvm.. i think my hair will still grow back n? >.<

im still asian.. gosh i still have dark black hair after all..

maybe one day i'll be like all these singaporeans .. i love

my black hair.. why do i want to be that crazy one.. >.<

somehow i cant force myself to think like these older G

anymore.. it's coming out on me.. and =P .. im exiting my teens

but why?? aren't i suppose to wear formally like how the ty's

suppose to act? ehh.. why am i outcasting myself.. (the other

half of me is saying i dont give a damn about stereotyping)..

ahahah >.< [oh well stupid left n right brain will u stop

quarreling about it.. geez man] said the heart.. hahahhaha

ok the spine's saying i got 3 voices right here.. which should i

take into consideration? ....... i think the silence could be

quite a while.. until... to be cont'd..

New Experience haha

2011-01-24T19:34:00.014+08:00

alrighty.. so shall start with my crazy adventure yesterday..
hmm went out for a steamboat dinner along the rochor rd.. >.<"
super cool it had hot plate with soup and total was 54 bucks
shared among 3 ppl xD then we headed to Ophir Rd, a store called
Arabic Experience to try out this Shisha thingy..

hahah omg it's good to try once in a life time but of course
if you get addicted.. that's not good.. but i think it will
be a turn off to those who disregard smoking.. so for me im
definitely not addicted to it >.<" all i can describe is the
first puff you won't even know what happen.. you just
keep inhaling .. and the bubbles keep forming in the bottle
then once you stop breathing .. the first impression was good..
then out of a sudden >.< you'll just get choke and smoke just
comes out from your mouth = =" (it feels like you choke on milo powder)
lol my friend who was first timer as well got kinda addicted
and keep blowing smoke into my face lol like it helps come on..
it's tobacco with pineapple flavour..

3 of us smoke psps i smoke the least lol and the lvl of
solution just wont decrease..ohh i found out that Shisha
is only going to work if charcoal is present (on the top)
lol i think the best part was our friend called his army
friend over so it's like 2 vs 2 over All or Nothing..
(and we had 8 beers) lol crap it's 0 to 20 >.< i keep
thinking it was 15 zzz shack it really shows my reaction n
maths was super horrible.. but luckily i didn't drink the most
haha thanks to my friends keep being lenient to me hahah lmao
>.<

psps it was a good night after all.. been able to sleep well
after 2 crazy sleepless nights.. then didnt need to count sheeps
and i fell asleep hehe yeah maybe sometimes beers are good for some to sleep

Officially on Holidayz =)

2011-01-21T20:36:00.002+08:00

hohoho im finally free from today onwards = =" the last paper was not so bad after all..

hmm my hands are.. sore.. but now it's time to relax.. cos by 28th will be heading back school again.. oh mang..

zzz so tired today but hahah got to write this up.. it's super funny that there was this aunty.. a taxi aunty. She was in shocked when she saw me on the taxi..

i couldn't help but ask why are you shock? (i thought it was because of my blonde hair that was too unacceptable to her..) suddenly out of no where she was like OMG! you look totally like 黃靖倫.. i was like uh huh? really? * sarcastic* she was like wow no one told you that yet? i was like even more *sarcastic* lmao that moment inside of me was already rofl.. started bursting the moment i got off the cab..

lol i can't imagine how she kept repeating that and i was self-questioning why? aunty why? i thought i look more like myself hahahh.. hmm the funniest part was that she didn't buy that 黃靖倫 and me have no blood relationship.. kept saying that im his sister what the? hahahhah omg.. im really bursting to see such cute aunty in singapore.. but at least she's not that type of furious ones.. whew hahahah

anyways yeah im on holidays and it's rabbit year in 2 weeks time, and im happy ^^ so long have i felt this relief, wah free from stress ichiban! hahah

Universal Studio Singapore

2011-01-15T19:07:00.027+08:00

Hmm this was funny.. in my mind i read it as Universal World Studio.. but somehow it wasn't.. haa..

alrighty so here we go with a post to remember yesterday's happening at Universal Studio Singapore =)

So I met up with a secondary sch friend (Angel) at Vivo, waiting for the others to come.. in the end she went out at 9:30am .. I left my house at 10+am .. she reached first and told me our other friends had a car accident (lucky it was a minor crash).. then we waited until 12pm at Hard Rock Hotel for the other 3 to turn up..

Wow it had been 2 years since we were tgt in sch graduating.. was really happy catching up with them.. we went straight to get our tickets since we were 2 hrs late from original plan.. there were 3 tickets, 1 entrance, 1 retail voucher and 1 food voucher.

We went in and the first stop was "Hollywood", there we saw Kung Fu Panda!! Wow! haha he was huge! lol we took a photo with him and started our journey from the left. Our next stop was Madagascar.. we saw the big Ship there but the ride was closed = =" so we were walkin' around.. til we saw Lion and Penguin hahahax they were so cute, the Lion actually stomp infront of the camera and block all of our views hehe so cheesy >.<"..

Next was the "Far far away" yup! we went into the land of Orgres hahah too bad we couldn't find Shrek and Fiona anywhere near.. so up we went on to our first roller coaster ride of the day.. The "Enchanted airways" hahaha to my surprise.. I was expecting a dropping pressure from the ride.. but there wasnt any huge drop but the turning speed was too fast for me to rise my hands up in the air xD.. so yup but my friend grabbed my hands and actually screamed O.o lol after the ride i was basically opened up for more adventure! Our next stop was the "Shrek 4-D adventure" oh man we actually queue quite awhile to get in despite the 15 mins. of waiting written on a sign board outside. But it was worth the while ahahha the donkey kept sneezing and water from the front seat kept sprayin on us.. but one poor kid who sat the moving chair was frightened so at the end he was crying quite pitifully.. After that we moved to the souvenirs of Shrek woah they were quite expensive to say.. so we didnt spent except for 2 of them who bought a special bottle drink *haha*

We walked to the "Lost World" wanting to sit the "Canopy flyer" but the queue was 45 mins.. suddenly we changed our minds becos of the other parts uncovered.. plus the "rapid adventure" was under maintenance zzz again.. so we walked to the "Ancient Egypt" hahah to my surprise we knew about the "treasure hunter" but somehow none of us was willing to take that ride.. since we were seeking for thrillers.. we then saw the "revenge of the mummy" but.. they said it was closed! and at this point we were all a little frustrated by the amount of rides that were available for us.. but i saw Cleopatra off photography time.. walking by !! gosh she was hot and with that bangs haircut!! =D mang wished i could take a pic with her hahah (This Cleopatra VII had a thing with Julius Caesar?! :p i btr not go on.. dont want their spirits to haunt me >.<")

Next up we walked to the "Sci-fi" but of course none of us were interested in the scary looking roller coaster and in the end one of our friends wanted to sit but was also under maintenance seemingly to reopen this summer.. There was a ride "accelerator" similar to spinning cups and teapots.. oh gosh just by looking at it.. i was already dizzy so none of us wanted to queue for it as well lol..

As we were exiting the "Sci-fi", we entered "New York" woah!! a couple of hollywood stars were around for e.g. Marilyn Monroe (which I stupidly asked my friend if she was local or foreigner).. then Charlie Chaplin!! omg.. i didn't get the chance to take a photo since i went to loo = =" After that we went into this theatre which we thought we were to watch a movie.. suddenly it was a production by Steven Spielberg! Words could never explain that one sight you would have seen, it was just so astonishing. Everyone applause at the end =D.

We knew that we were reaching the end of the journey.. as we were walking back to the Lost world to take the "Canopy flyer".. we saw the Cat from Shrek!! omg he was soo cute! we took pictures with him so adorable!! As we reach the Canopy flyer.. it was 60 mins to the queue.. but luckily we had express pass so we went in.. and within 10 mins we sat the ride.. but 5 mins before our turn.. it started to pour heavily.. none of us were prepared for this rain, we had no umbrellas or even a single poncho.. basically we rode in the rain.. two of my friends sat the the front viewing seats Angel and I sat the back viewing seat and another sat with another person with front views. How shall I say.. it was cool, I love the raining scenery and the thrill of unknowing what will happen next since we faced backwards.. once again my friend screamed so crazily = =" lol but it was super fun!! hahax how many chances do u get to sit in a rainy whether? hahax

After that 2 of our friends went to check in.. left the 3 of us waiting for the rain to get smaller.. so as it gets smaller we ran to the nearest food court.. had our lunch-dine at 4pm.. super late.. around 5/6pm we ran to buy a poncho ($2 each) zzz which was why im so pissed this mornin' cause i left it at some cafe >.<" we walked past the "Ancient Egypt" again and found the "revenge of the mummy" ride was opened! and we could not go for it since we had a heavy lunch-dine =(.. so we headed to souvenirs shop at "Hollywood" and look for our other 2 friends that were hiding in Hard Rock Hotel.. lol sat there for awhile waiting for my friends to change up.. the usual 3 of us went back to Vivo to visit another friend (ZY) and a friend's aunt.. Thanks to Ah Man, I had a free dinner (which was really full) lol.. Later we had some plan change again = =" wanted to bring our friend who came all the way from KL to experience night life in S'pore.. even her aunt was supportive of the idea.. but she had to go back to the hotel for some reasons.. so her aunt left, Angel and ZY and I was planning to either go prawning or some place to drink..

In the end we headed to Chijmes.. went into a pub/cafe? called Cosafe.. gosh we ordered Heineken hahah and shack was tipsy on one bottle.. my friend was already tipsy by half a bottle.. so by the end of her drink i think half of the time she didnt know what she was saying >.<" worst was that we played that very well-known (All or Nothing) we kept saying very weird things .. my friend wanted to say Zero, instead she said Jiu (nine in chinese ) = =" then a second time was Ten but she said Net.. lol so she basically drank alot at once unnecessarily.. i think this was the first time i cant control what i say.. lol we said to send off our Malaysian friend the next day to airport but instead i said to send myself off.. gosh i didn't notice it, my friends spotted it out lol.. i was so tipsy that i really had to leave.. so i left my friends and the stupid poncho there.. luckily ZY was not drunk hahah >.<"

so yup and now it's "the next day" already.. im actually feelin' like "fly" today (just feel so unreal) but drank alot of water zzz for the photos.. yes i took not too many not too less, will post them on facebook after this week =D yeah!! Spring 2012 im definitely going back to Universal Studio for more funn!! hahax by then 21 years old can finally go into casino hahah lmao :p.

回憶一下：4.17.2010

2011-01-03T19:58:00.007+08:00

Just found out some nice ppl who post this online..
kept trying to hear what 阿信 said from other ppl's video but was unclear..
i guess this is pretty much it. =)

現在是2010年，聽說再過兩年，世界就會消失，這是真的嗎？

如果明天就是世界末日了，那麼就讓我們把所有的力氣都用完，

跟著怪獸、跟著瑪莎、跟著石頭、跟著冠佑、跟著我，

一起用力唱這首歌-

如果有一天你對我說你想要一顆星星那麼我就會為你摘下一顆星星

如果有一天你對我說你想要一朵花那麼我就會給你一場浩瀚無邊、永生難忘的煙花

如果你說你要離開我那麼我會說我要給你最後的、最美的、最好的溫柔

讓我跟你說讓我跟你說我給你自由我給你自由我給你全部全部全部全部的自由~

yes, 那煙花還真的是有夠難忘的。。這麽多年第一次也有可能是最後一次在戶外舉行的演唱會，很難會忘記 =D

五月天趕快回來開演唱會！這次一定站靠近舞臺感受那前所未有的感動+溫柔 =D

老了累了倦了變了那不會是我不會是我！！就這一次我和我的倔強! hahaha

等待著下一場的溫柔 =D

1st January 2011

2011-01-01T21:10:00.002+08:00

Coolio start of the year =D. got my hair blonde! xD super shiny under the sunlight hahah n i got alot of funny attention .. all i can say first time in my life eh?

black hair like overly common.. then ppl dont even look at u huh? lol this is a weird world. yup yup, hopefully my black hair dont grow our so quickly.. but yes.. i'll have to dye my hair to a browner color again when the black hair grows out or something.. seriously i can see myself spendin' this year = =" hopefully i dont overspent la =D hehe

hmm gave M2 a wash becos sch's parkin' lot really gave alot of bird poo n leaves all over the car lol really spent time washing it today.. soo tiring >.<" 1 hr wash all by myself is really crazy plus im not the only one doing that.. so many uncle washing their car lol but they think im siao cos of the wacky hair but anyways i was wearing a hoodie on so yup they won't recognise me hahahha

alrighty hopefully this year is gonna be a good one for everyone and me!! =))

31st December 2010

2010-12-31T02:02:00.004+08:00

Hihi =D whoa.. it's 2am.. everyone know's im an early sleeper.. but just finish the very last assignment!! yea finish the lab report =D

finally get the relief feeling to count down to 1.1.2011 =) it's gonna be a better year! the white rabbit year ^^ gonna dye my hair blonde tmr hahah omg cant imagine what dr. rashid's face will be when i turn up with this new hairstyle on his extra class = =" hahah looks like i just came back from the cemetery ...

still feeling that amusement of how i could even suggest selling fast flowers in a cemetery >.<" gosh he must be thinking im a siao marketer = =" aiyo..

mang now from saturday onwards it's gonna be a new year =) and revision for exams which still kinda sucks.. but after that!! hey! yeah! finally chinese new year and all the new opportunities and open to vacation!! hahah omg.. i really want to go on a cruise BUT! my mum went to arrange it with landmine.. oh crapz, sure man, if this is so im just gonna save the money for the taiwan trip then = =" and im sure the air tickets are going to increase in 2011..

it's kinda weird to blog now standing and on 31st Dec.. but whatever i think im just excited =) yea! Jagdeep, i finish my lab report please be lenient on my marks hahax
ps. to all people who were sick this month >.<" i totally understand how you feel man.. stressed, immune low, lack of sleep then dunno what crap we had turn in to the tutors.. zz then fever for some, flu for some, and cough for some.. yup totally understand.. cause now im oso coughing my lungs out.. so long since the last time i had cough.. yea it sucks to fall sick when there's a bunch of things to do.. can't rest n yet body's goin' down so yup 1.1.2011 everybody have a good rest =) sure everyone out there will have their plans =) alrighty.. better catch some sleep before i can't wake up in 5 hrs time lol! yeah~~ bloggy let's count down tgt later~

Congrats to Cousin Boon and Irene!

2010-11-26T23:45:00.006+08:00

Hahax, how shall i say? Though every year we usually see each other once and lately just get to know your elder sister a little better. Tonight had been a great one!

Though never took photos while the two of you were on the red carpets, but this is memorable! Another cousin of mine is married! hahax =) suddenly, i feel different many thoughts running through my head when i attend this wedding dinner.

Never in my life, I feel so different from today. Is it because this is my last year of teenage life? My mindset is shifting to the "-ty's" This is the first time I was wondering if i will ever get married?! hahaha omgosh.. this is so not me =)

hmm i will never know only time and fate will tell. =) but, yes cousin boon and irene was fabulous today, they look good in their wedding suits and gowns! so pretty and handsome xD food is not so bad! just the carparking = =" err well, lets not talk abt it.

Oh well, can't say more greetings than to wish the two of you 白頭偕老，早生貴子！ hahah chinese is much easier to communicate! >.<

and me? hmm im all over the place, =) only time will tell.

before i close this entry.. once again dedicate a song which is more romantic for this lovebirds =D

Car Collected!! xD

2010-10-15T21:57:00.002+08:00

hahax just to let you all hv a glimpse of it >.<" lol.

=p for safety reasons they always smudge the car plate so psps >.<" i smudge it >.<"

ok so today, i took this baby frm Alexandra road to home! well, of course my very worried mom asked the help of 2nd uncle and aunt.. so take credits ba =) thank you for today, and taught me how to pump petrol >.<" though it should be my dad's responsibility sigh.. guess my life is to owe others aft all.. hmm. but yes, thank you very much, without you all, i won't be able to collect the car and might be lost somewhere >.<"

ohh @cousin xue ying, no gps built in >.< my dad said it was unnecessary n somehow the car was expensive said by our experts lol >.< =) but as i said right, first car don't need so good, til now im still trying to gage the width of my car etc.. lol

oh yup, just now i went to add petrol to my car.. man, i was surprised with the cars at night in SG!! they were so fast, so many, so hard to see (motorbike).. n my worried mum just cant stop talking to calm herself..

sighz.. i didn't know driving could cause so much stress on the road.. :S i always, always thought it was a fun thing, but maybe not in SG.. ok nvm! i will train myself to be skillful! one day, i will be like them! i believe im a bright kid! i can do it! =)

yup will be training my parking skills alone tmr!! practice makes perfect, well it's true, maybe not perfect but definitely improvements! =) my journey ahead, here i come! xD

xD Smile

2010-10-05T16:27:00.002+08:00

ok first of all, wishing my cousin (Xue Ying) a happy birthday =). we'll go east coast soon!! ^^

Secondly, would like to thank my parents for supporting my decision on getting on a hatchback car. >.<" I really need time to understand the road first then slowly upgrade to sedans for my second car when im ready.

So today, we agreed and bought a Mazda 2 hatchback, with full body kits with leather seats, window frame as well as 16 inch rims xD meaning the tire is the same as sedan type ^^. It's for sure a shared car within my family. But really thank them for agreeing on a hatchback because they prefer sedan cars.

i didn't take a photo of it because i thought the colour of the car was really funny >.<" but when im driving it, you all will know. hmm, at least for now my family doesn't need to walk so much =D

but yes, suddenly, i felt that maybe im not such a "driver" type of person but the sight seeing type and prefer to sit behind =) so i have this urge for my brother to grow up faster and drive me and family around. and yes, men still have better patient than women while driving. when i was younger, i use to think that i can drive better than men, but some how gender do play a part. men tends to be able to "control" a machine better than women do.

nevertheless, i will try to master this simple machine over the years, hopefully to get some results at the end of it. =)well, nth is perfect. but this is definitely good enough. =)

1st day of my "ha.ha" holiday ..

2010-09-29T10:59:00.002+08:00

ok so i can really conclude that when im occupied with almost the whole day, my phone will starting ringin', my msn would flood with windows.. n i just can't take a break.
BUT, when im bored, my phones so quiet, my msn won't flood until my com's lag.. n it feels like no one's alive >.<" this just goes with "i think i've got a lot of friends but i dont hear from them, what's another night all alone, when you're spending everyday on your own"

so here it goes im just a kid and life is a nightmare~~ sighzz i hate this.. i dunno what to spend my time on.. dad's home tmr?! what the.. i dunno if he's coming to the worst case.. grr then i'll really hate him for life. then?! friends and cousins and family.. omg.. when i have time, there's no plan (at all). when i don't have time the plans start coming.. ahhh i just wanna screammm

so this is the 1st day of my "ha.ha" or "ah.ah" holiday zz what a start man! lookin forward to where life brings me .. gosh im so bored at home = =" n i can't believe the stupid new condo that's blockin' all my views hv nt finish its construction, not even every unit's renovation!! Oct is coming!! hahah it took them about 5-6 years just to build it.. this is seriously a turtle speed..

= =" ok time for lunch or watever >.<" wah super boring zzz

Resident Evil: After Life

2010-09-12T00:59:00.004+08:00

Just found out that it should be nice to take note of what movies I've had watched :)
Mang I hope I'm able to sleep after this, just want to come here and leave a msg to show that I'm alive!
So yup 2 weeks to exam, 1 day to a month where I was qualified to drive (ps I still don't see any license in my mailbox!)
Yup, yesterday ate dinner with cousins and had a great laugh over 5 ppl n 1 ginseng? Lol and yup we watched this movie about zombies!! I have to confess now that I didn't know this was action-horror >.<
I just thought it was some l4d2 convert to movie in real life stuation .. N yet to know they played this jap mov premo advert
Right before the show zzz freaking horrible manz and rainie had this upcoming horror movie too..

Whats up with the ppl? Seeking thrills with horror movies that would give an impact to the heart?
Anyways this show was okay la >.< but prepare to get shocks like wtf?! I think I screamed with the actresses at most times :S
But somehow the audiences today were half dead like zombies too.. No one screamed but most laugh at the funny parts?
Erm stress relief I suppose? Anyways it's a good wait after 3 years for a series like that but I do have to criticise the BGM..
It really turns me off :( when I cue the sound to close my eyes the next thing I knew was a stupid zombie flew infront of the screen..
I think I should thank my cousins for the wise choice not to watch in 3d .. It might be horrible with zombies flying into your face
Oh gosh.. Okok I'm getting sleepy I better stop my adventurous yesterday . Gd morning people!

Official Driver!! ^^

2010-08-13T22:10:00.006+08:00

Wow I've got so much to say about this day 13.08.2010!

Everything seemed to flash passed me so quickly today that it was just so incredible.

I woke up today, thinking to myself will i get the chance or not. (the other half of me was like "you can do it man!")

so as i reach the driving centre, i told myself to be confident. but as i was in the waiting room.. it was so intense.. there was this malay boy sitting on the left end, while of course i sat at the right end >.<" somehow awkwardness occurs because there were only two of us in the room, instructors were not turning up for the warm up.. and only radio playing love songs (which made the atmosphere worst).. :S i think he felt the same way too.. but we were saved after 2 other girls came into the warming up room.

after that the instructors brought us to our test car.. and my test car was no. 105. The previous driver of that car was a 50 years old lady, i saw her step out of the car and i was already 15 mins late for my warm up. She seem very blur.. the tester was so so so pissed at her. Which, firstly came to my mind was that poor her.. but secondly, i suddenly thought of, what if that tester was my tester? and he was already so pissed?? how? what about my performance later?.. wow all the thoughts running through my head..

right after the warming up (which i don't know if it was a good or bad thing?) there was this stupid long lorry blocking the whole of the traffic this morning. the driver park the lorry there and disappear. No one could find the owner of the lorry.. So my instructor told me to turn back into the circuit.. which i was like (crap i guess this was friday the 13th.. i can't pass le.) i was emotionally brought down by that stupid lorry but who knew it actually saved me!

as i was waiting in the test-waiting room, a tester Heng Ah Meng came to the door and called my name. I was like "yes, im here" wow, to my surprise.. he was very anxious and seemed like needing a loo .. so almost every subject of my test was a rush..
The items that i were tested was Slope, Directional Change, Vertical and Parallel Parking, S and Cranked Course.. to my surprise no Ramp or E-brake!! gosh.. then due to the lorry that caused the road traffic jam on the right, the tester had to ask me to turn on the left, which were the easier test routes and only 2 test routes were to turn left. But one thing I was really pissed at myself was the very last part of the test.. I told myself utterly many times not to accelerate at the stop line after 2 seconds of checks.. at least must wait more than 5 seconds.. but somehow my excitableness brought me to a big mistake that could almost gave me an immediate failure.. but overall thanks to the tester that only demerit me with 14 points!! xD so i passed! He was really a relax person,.. not those very strict tester than only gives creeps .. overall he still talks and laughs with me while driving.

guess providing that he finds that im still alert.. lucky i wasn't really like "hahah yup" i'll only do that with the instructors but not with the white shirt that sit beside me! hahax so yup!! im officially a new driver from today onwards and no more going back to driving centre!! I graduated!! Yeah!! hahax yup practice to become a skillful and safe driver! remember oh "don't drink drive!" :D

Year 3000 & GC's new Single-->

2010-08-11T21:54:00.003+08:00

I have been thinking what would it really be like in year 3000? who will be living on earth? will earth still be counted as a planet? or would it be crushed by some asteroids? hmm fascinating.. this then brought me back to Jonas Brothers today..

with the year 3000!!

--> I've been to the year 3000
Not much has changed but they lived under water
And your great, great, great granddaughter
Is doing fine, doing fine? <--

hahahaha my gosh this lyric is so funny !! classic!
i dont even know if im getting married.. can't believe i would have imagine if i would have a great, great, great granddaughter.. O_O

&& those GC fans out there!! Like it's Her Birthday's Single out on iTunes!! must go listen!! This song rocks! it's not very Blink-182 it's VERY GC!!

^^ more to come this month,, fascinating.. im riding the August roller coaster man!! so many stuff happening this month.. first and foremost.. this friday is my driving test!! my gosh! i must try to pass no matter what!! Clara Koh you can do it!! always remember safety checks people!

Flashes

2010-07-30T22:24:00.002+08:00

erm i don't know what brought me here today. but somehow i just need to make sense to what i've been seein'/thinkin' today.

so after i brought my bro to his tuition today.. i was basically walkin' around amk hub waiting to fetch him once he's done. but as i was walking around.. flashes of my past came to me.. i don't know how to explain it but it all came to me so suddenly.. at first was fine, but the flashes gets to me way frequently after the first few times..

grr, i seriously hate to be haunted by my past. im pretty sure no one likes to be haunted by those unwanted past memories. but its really sick when you can't do anything to stop it from flashing in your head.. i don't know why. but places or small little things could remind me of people that i've known in the past.

those familiar feelings or feelings that had been lost and im longing to get them back. but all i know is that reality strikes, no matter how much i want to change, how much i want the change.. i can't change the person that's not supposed to be controlled by me.

and all i thought in this life was to just get on with it-- keep the peace of mind. keep everything tgt because i know happiness lies in when mending occurs. but since in reality humans act harshly, once there's a crack on the glass, its like "that's it we're done, and the next min. you know, that piece of glass is already lying on the floor into millions of broken pieces where mending is hardly possible that one would rather get another 'new' glass to replace the one that had soo many memories shared in it"..

i don't understand, why am i feeling like this today, pretty odd. just when i thought i place the ones whom i love somewhere spotless, yet.. i can actually feel that they're still there from time to time; in reality they're no longer the ones that i knew from the start.

i don't want to escape anything that i've done or said. i just want an honest way to get around it. anyways i was just tryin' to say that its impossible for me to forget you.

Despicable Me!! (The Movie)

2010-07-10T21:49:00.003+08:00

Bahaha this movie was more than awesome!! The starting was so entertaining already.. cousins, my bro and i were laughing from the start til the end.

hahhaha!! we have a plan to join the Minionss!! gosh they were so adorable =) hahah

>.< cousin pq wanted to learn their language too!! =) i wonder how long would it take for me to master another language in this life!

but yup thanks for all friends and cousins concern yst.. it was really just some stupid life questions. that sometimes i wondered why i kept facing it. or just can't get myself out of it.. once there was this friend told me "what goes around, comes around" maybe i shall learn to become a ninja .. light as wind, yet knows when to excel!

yes, maybe i was just an easy target. i've got to train myself towards versatility!
yup, must become stronger!!

anyways i drew a minion today!! and i wanted to colour it, but i found out that there wasn't even a colour pencil box lying around the house.. lol this shows that i really didn't attend to art class for more than awhile.. >.<"

but just for a tribute to my favourite cartoon of the year!! hahax Despicable Me ^^

psps steve carell's voice over for the character Gru was sooo funny!! especially when he was reading the bedtime story with the 3 puppet kittens!! omg! hahaha i still can't stop laughing after a day.. = ="

yup, yup im the first one to opt for Despicable Me 2 to be continued after this movie!! i'll for surely watch it in 3D again!! hahahx cute, cute, hmm next life i wanna be a minion!! xD

4 weeks passed me by like this

2010-06-27T23:01:00.003+08:00

Wow.. ok so yesterday wasn't such a day for me.. but no time to care about those stuff!!

Tomorrow >.< is a month's time after the last exam.. so crazy.. :S looks like im already enjoying the holiday and i don't wanna return to school and to that Upp Thomson Rd.. = =..

Aiyo mum told me that maybe i can go Taiwan this winter.. but i wonder if my friends are there.. or have they planned to visit another country.. =(

aiyo.. tonight have my favourite team vs Mexico.. really wanted to watch but lately my body clock is screwed up by watchin' fifa til 4:30am everyday..>.< need to go back to that "time for school" sleeping pattern..

>.< but im really tired today. i mop the whole house twice, change a king size bedsheet (including pillow and bolster cases), put on the single size bedsheet.. wash the bedsheets.. :S.. house work is horrible, (what if i was living in a larger house..) ohh i can't think about me mopping each staircase climbing up and down with a pail of water.. 經典僕人! hahaha

gosh this semester got no rest day for me, have to head back to Upp Thomson Rd. Everyday.. O.O = =// aiyo.. then have to reconsider the driving test date.. maybe its either before a lecture or after a tutorial..

but im aiming to pass the test once!! i don't want to waste another 156+ dollars just for another driving test.. its crazy how much i spent on driving lessons, it can be compared to 1-2 years of petrol money.. >.<" aiyo.. anyways see you (Upp. Thomson Rd.) Tmr.. i wonder is Carol or Thiru our Anthro Lecturer or Tutor..Predictions: most prolly they swopt over again.. o.o"

This Is What I Hate About Humans:

2010-06-26T15:27:00.003+08:00

We never think before we judge.. (this occurs more than most of the time)

We are usually led by our emotions than logically conclusions.

We blame others for fault than ourselves.

I don't understand man.. today is such a freakin' hot day already..

Everyone out there is patiently waiting for something. Yes, I don't blame anyone feeling hectic, tired and exhuasted. Because today is damn hot.

But, if you're just like this stupid security guard, that has no brains at all.. I can hardly believe you exist.. i might be harsh with my words all the time. but im making a point. or maybe self-defending..

Tell me which resident in a condo gets yelled by a security guard? it's like hello?! im staying here, you're just a guard.. he totally forgotten that i could write in and complain and i could even fire him away.. as easy as killing ants..

gosh.. so all this leads to what? suay lor, when your parents decide that the fault is on myself and they don't stand for their own people! nice! very nice! indeed, if its not because of my parents, i will head straight back down to the security guards and ask for his name, moreover, i can just turn his life upsidedown, its just the matter i want to do it or not.

stupid guard, this is your first yellow card, if you give such stupid poor judgement again. straight red!! i don't ever want to see you around this compound ever again!!

ehh..Happy Father's Day?

2010-06-20T19:53:00.004+08:00

LOL ok i've been wishing people's parents Happy Mother's and Father's day.. and found out wth? my own old man and mum aren't even in town.. lol so what ashame for them anyways.. lol

ehh just found out a very very interesting thing, as i was watchin' Fifa just now.. they were playing Slovakia's National Anthem, it sounded like Jay's 半獸人's prelude.. gosh! i thought i was about to sing that song and found out it was Fifa! lol and i still ask myself why would fifa play jay's song?? lol and finally found that it was Slovakia's anthem.. gosh must look for that ..

Slovakia National Anthem

Jay's 半獸人

So yup.. somehow after listen to it a couple of times it didn't sounded the same.. >.<" maybe i was sync' both songs in my head that's why they sounded the same.. hahas anyways wishin' all fathers that claim themselves as a father and worked hard for their family a Happy 2010 Father's Day. =)

=) The Happy Days

2010-06-19T20:37:00.010+08:00

=D @cousins, many thanks for letting me lodge at your house again.

Had a fun day at Ikea ytd, finally got to eat some food that I did not get the chance the other time >.<"

So yup, my cousins bought this fun pack of Honey Stars that gave a small colourable toy character frm Shrek.. Firstly, cousin pq thought it was some tissue inside a plastic.. since the toy figure was totally white in colour.. she brought it for me to see.. I thought it was some gift of a cherub angel.. just like the pic below

Ltr on, cousin pq ask her sis about the toy figure. We then found out it was frm the honey stars pack and it was Fiona!! LOL! Shrek's Wife >.<" LOL so speechless. After that we decided to colour it and it looks like that:

Suddenly as i look closer, I ignored the hair of Fiona's.. and found that she looked like Steve Martin... gosh this is so weird and my cousins laughed >.<"
Comparison of Fiona to Steve Martin:

>.< no offence made towards both Steve and Fiona.. just that i found the two of them look a like..

psps. so today, cousin pq and i watched nearly 3 movies, (well, at home).. but we couldn't take it cause it was just so dreadful and tiring. Although both of us slept for so long.. Had a great lesson through The Karate Kid, maybe we had chosen the wrong quality version but through the mumblings we manage to finish the whole movie in amaze and left with a very dotz ending..wished it was longer at the end but the front part of the show was a little draggy.. Yup Jaden was really brought up by the power of Will! Truly amazing, never give up your pride mans! Even if you're bullied, you must fight back!! And whatever is done can never be returned!

Kung Fu is to make peace! Not war! hahax yup really wished i could stay one more day .. but i really had to go home and settle the house.. see, whenever im busy, im always, always surrounded. but when im dead free as a housefly, no one bugs me LOL. and as the elderly always say "this is life" =) alright, so this is life >.<"

anyways, im glad that mum and bro reached Bei Jing safely, (hope they had fun). Well, for me? I will have to clean-up the house, be ready to get to the airport this weekend and welcome them home :D. By that means, I have to freakin' clean the house up and down twice this week and change the bedsheets .. and soon im gonna get kicked back to my room.. ohh PSPS. courts bed are freakin' comfortable esp. that type with what?! Aloe Vera on it = =" my gosh what on earth man?! Bed with Aloe Vera?! LOL but yup very comfortable, at a same time EXPENSIVE la.. $2000+ it's out of my budget..
:( gotta find cheaper beds, maybe i can reconsider :)

Alrighty, i think it's time to do housework! :D

No. 10 Messi!!

2010-06-13T14:19:00.004+08:00

= =" ok.. finally i get to collect my first and prolly last football jersey in this life time.

Always wanted to buy one but 4 yrs ago was in China.. and Suzhou doesn't have it..

This time.. finally, I get to buy one of my fav football player's jersey collection!!

So yup any football fans in Singapore that are crazy about it, and want to know where to buy, erm Peninsula Shopping Centre, 4th floor there are a couple of stores for you to compare prices.. but just so you know, they're prolly neighbours (as in the store owners know each other).. don't be surprise if you can't find a lower price.. mostly sell at the same price. esp. this season.

So this is the back view..

Too excited that I forgotten to take a photo of the front view..

>.<" lol psps very long nv take a photo of myself.. gosh yup hopefully Argentina can keep rolling in the game && Maradona rocks.. = = wished i were a trained football player.. :D

FIFA WORLD CUP 2010: South Africa ^_^

2010-06-11T20:27:00.004+08:00

=D hahahhx im so into this! i remember 4 yrs ago i was watchin' this in China.. omg it was so cool to watch it via ESPN! and i could watch almost every match.. and then it was dad who was payin' the cable fees.

now that im payin the stupid cable fees by myself =( gotta move into Mcdonalds to watch live!! lol but this time im only gonna support (the hosting team: South Afrika, Agentina and Brazil.. well maybe Spain and England..) = = can't afford to keep going down to Mcdonalds anyway.. ahh hopefully malaysia's TV3 will air live today!! ahh miracle please happen!

>.< ohh to: Na, i saw your comments hahax 1st of all yup all the best to your band wa.. :D think it's gonna be cool & yupyup im currently on holidayz, secondly, yes, i was watchin' 敗犬 lol >.<".. then yup california is definitely in my plans. just that i don't know when. but hope it's soon to be.

yupp im soo gonna search for some free online streaming players!! fifa i wanna watch live lahh!! >.<" hahahax update!! dad approve to let me buy the WC channel!! holy cow! finally don't have to keep scrolling the commentaries!! ^^ haha Agentina tonight!! Lionel Messi!! No. 10!!

The Orangey County :)

2010-06-03T23:59:00.005+08:00

Hmm out of the Aaron Carter's cycle.. here i come with the O.C. again..

Yup so after watching a few episodes of the O.C. again.. = = just thinkin about waking up the next morning and the ocean appears infront of me rocks my socks..

im soo lookin' forward to visit the States :) wanna take a look at what's around the other side of the world!

it would be so cool to even have the chance to visit some old friends livin' in NYC and Minnesota hahax even Canada (if i got the chance to).

although im physically still in singapore.. i guess mentally, im alr blown away!
lol

yup,yup must plan a trip down! ohh! california~~ hope to visit u soon!

meanwhile.. continue to watch the o.c. >.<"

Hooray!! :D

2010-05-31T21:25:00.002+08:00

Yeah~~ finally over..

stupid Sociology paper.. my palms almost turned into a rock.. = ="

i was shocked that i almost cannot let go of the pen.. my muscles were so tensed..

and out of a blur i wrote so much crap = =.. lol .. just pass can liao

and this one thing always happen to me.. when im busy , there're so many tv shows i want to watch..

and when im busy my phone and sms or even messenger's windows keep ringing and blinking..

likewise, when im as free as i can be.. no tv shows, no phone rings, no sms and not even a single msn window's blinkin...

wa.. what kinda life is this .. >.<""

anywayzz holiday starts now!! :D

敗犬女王!!! LOL >.<""

2010-05-26T23:34:00.002+08:00

ok first of all.. i know im kinda still in the Aaron Carter cycle :S psps.

hmm yup so today finally finish that stupid long 120 MCQszz B&B test.. well, don't wanna talk about it much because its alr done!! n i wanna stop my adrenaline for pumpin' at this hr.. >.<"

yup yup so i was watchin' 敗犬 just now.. and i found that the episode today was kinda interestin'.. it got me thinkin' for a moment. Ask every1 a question "Have u ever thought of what you would do the moment you finish study?" don't tell me that its about work.. if that was the first thing that came to your mind.. i think we're on the same track!! because when you found that you've got nothing to do, dazing is the one thing that waste most of our life's time..

so i guess we need to step out of that mindset.. we're the new Gen.! we need to make a change man.. >.< start dreaming out loud! after tonight's episode, im startin' to plan my trip to visit the west coast of the states (yes, i might have visited before, but that was when?? 1 or 2 yrs old?? seriously, can't even remember a thing except the photos, which doesn't make any differences..)

yup, i can't con't to bore my life, i feel like this "almost" 20 yrs past by me by like nothing, all i can remember were life lessons, teachin' me to grow and grow. But in the end did i ever grow out of who im suppose to be? Nah.. im still me, the original me. I didn't even grow in height for don't know how many ages ago..

yup, no matter who's goin' to bring me down.. they will nv stop me, becos this is my life, im holdin' all chances and choices that i want. it's just like playin' chess. i've got all the pieces, it's whether i want to move them or not, or i move them in the right or wrong directions.

yupyup, one more exam on 31st May and helloha to June! yea the warm tropical summer ^^, yet, it's going to be hott!!

Let Go..Let Go..Let Go :D

2010-05-21T23:00:00.002+08:00

hahahx this song is spinning in my head!!

although it was kinda like taken off Flo Rida's Rewind//

but it still sounds great! the lyrics were as if telling me to..

clara let go of the stress!!

just keep letting go of the stresszzz :D

= =" my bio clock sys. is kinda wrong :( i stayed up til late (as if i lived to see the dawn >.<) and then i kinda sleep until noon zzZZz..(hopefully, i can return from the nocturnal cycle ..) because, if this con't one will get hypersomnia.. which is really bad for health. Ps. Revising for Brain and Behaviour.. the serious case of hypersomnia is narcolepsy..

woahhh so i gotta let goOooO let GooOooO !

:D PS. i added a link, ppl follow me on twitter! lol! im very interested to see funny tweets of urs too! :D just tweet abt anything that's on your mind!

Happy Mother's Day!

2010-05-09T15:17:00.011+08:00

:) To all Mum's around the world. I just want to thank you all for the greatest and unrequited love that you had provided for your children!

So that we are blessed and loved! Without Mums, We won't know who We are today.

Above all, I just want to say it is very nice to feel your presence around!

With mum's around, things just seem easier and enlightened!

Dedicate a song: When I look at you to all mum's around the world!
(yes, i know its more appropriate for lovers, but this just sounds great!)

For Mum:
"When I look at you I see forgiveness, I see the truth. You loved me for who I am like the stars hold the moon, right where they belong. And I know I'm not alone."--When I Look At You

Although, I'm not working just yet, i hope this is a very small gift to you. my appreciation. :) [Hopefully, i can earn enough money to fulfill her dreams!! God, must give me that chance! Her life was not easy, must give her some credits!]

so.. Wishing all Mums a very Happy 2010 Mother's Day!

The End of Marathon is Near

2010-05-07T22:02:00.005+08:00

^^ finally one lab report is done!

there's one more lab report, one more tutorial and then! Final exams!

and then! where shall i go to? :D lol maybe shall try to get the license by July!

gosh.. finally finish the TTT for FT, going to take my FTT in June.. hopefully can get a driving test in July, if not August will be fine..

then when pass!! omg >.<" really wish i can drive on the road .. no more of waiting for stupid taxis, no more of taking other people's cars and have to look at their stupid unwillingness and arrogant attitudes! no more no more!! yeah next thurs movie "the last song" is airing on cinemas island wide!! omg can't wait can't wait!! hehe <3 nicholas sparks!!

i have so many things to catch up with.. :( must try to finish some during the 2 weeks break lol sounds so impossible but well! must have a good rest this break!

ehh must start some plans for the holiday, so that time is used wisely and i can find myself doing things productively and stop thinking about crap issues >.<
i wish i have a smaller amygdala.. lol less emotions, less self-reflective ..

ahh anyways its been a tired day.. i need some rest and some inspiration for tomorrow! :D <3 the good old days, they're still the best part of my memories!!

=) Midterms Down!! More Enemies to come!

2010-04-24T15:43:00.006+08:00

Sergeant X: Team Alpha do you read?
Team Alpha: Yes Sir!
Sergeant X: First off well done on the mission!
Team Alpha: *Cheers*
Sergeant X: Well, not yet. We're not done.
Team Alpha: *Frowns*
Team Alpha: Sergeant, what's next?
Sergeant X: You will know in a while, I had sent my men to reinforce your next mission.
Team Alpha: *fooling around with morse code ...---...*
Sergeant X: *Shouts to the walkie talkie* Team Alpha!
Team Alpha: *drops the walkie talkie and pick up* Yes Sir!
Sergeant X: You will be sent home by June. This is your last mission, I hope to see a continuity of good performance!
Sergeant X: Meantime, get armed and wait outside the camp. A Chinook will pick you guys to your next mission.
Team Alpha: What?! Sergeant! We just won our battle, not even a drink?
Sergeant X: Are you in or not?! We are running out of time, get your asses moving now or you are not coming home!
Team Alpha: Roger that!!

= =" geez. this is prolly what im feelin' now. Final exams is like at the end of May!
my god! can't wait for June to arrive! LOL. for now practice and practice plus the effort of cramming all "that" stuff into the brain. grr . yes, very hectic, indeed just need more time but.. writing this blog entry kind of waste sometime already. but anywayzz i'll be back! (soon)

五月天·夢想

2010-04-18T18:12:00.003+08:00

17.4.2010

五月天辦到了！多年的夢想，永恒的執著！

他們終于在新加坡國家體育場首次讓歌迷們感受到那股倔強的氣氛！

雖然真的有點熱，但是他們辦到了！這似乎給了我很大的信心，我應該朝向自己的夢想！

這也是我第一次感受到原來阿信也有他感性的一面！煙火的句點並不是終點！而是我們見證了即將到來的開始！

天邊風光身邊的我
都不在你眼中
你的眼中藏著什麽
我從來都不懂
沒有關係你的世界
就讓你擁有
不打擾是我的溫柔

不知不覺不情不願
又到巷子口
我沒有哭也沒有笑
因爲這是夢
沒有預兆沒有理由
你真的有說過
如果有就讓你自由

喔哦哦
喔哦哦
喔哦哦
喔哦哦哦~~

阿信：
「如果你对我说，你想要一朵花，那我就给你一朵花。
如果你对我说，你想要一颗星星，那么我就会给你一颗星星。
如果你对我说，你想要一场雪，那么我就会给你一场雪。
如果你对我说，你想要离开我，那么我会说，我会对你说，我给你自由。」(啊~ 這經典的一句有感動到！)

「就算世界千瘡百孔，也要和你逃到最浪漫的盡頭。」

哈哈！爲什麽他每一句都那麽溫柔、浪漫？卻在這溫柔和浪漫中能感受到一股瀟灑味？

xD 啊！我想當歌手！>.<" 我想組樂團！我想和樂團們環游世界！其他的我什麽都可以放下！！

超想聽到一群人一起唱我寫的歌！！噢買嘎！我一定要等到那天！！當夢想一一實現了，我死而無憾！

2 down! 2 more to go!

2010-04-09T22:52:00.002+08:00

Yes! Midterms are about done just that still have:

1) Stats (16th April)
2) SS1112 Counselling Presentation (16th April)
3) B&B (22nd April)

and I found out that if you slept during the afternoon and you try to sleep at night again.. wow.. you won't really sleep properly? you keep having this weird intervals that you keep opening your eyes every 2-3 hours. gosh. so from wednesday onwards until today i slept at 2am and i never really like sleep properly.. geez must sleep well tonight.. (psps. went off topic >.<")

hehe can't wait for Sat to come! can't wait to see Mayday la!! must have my body shaken up on the day! let out all the stresses!

Tues.. must stay at woodlands driving centre and get all theories done!! must chiong ah! then then wa.. still got 2 lab reports to write plus Soci's workbook exercises ..
:( wa liao then end of May is like final exams for sem 2..

crazy la then first year of Psyc is done! CRAAZY! my gosh sometimes i really regreted admiting to Uni life so early.. should;ve gone experience the society, and what are people living in this world like first. i should've taken a year gap.

anywayszz if i were smarter >.< maybe i won't end up like that. so tired = = don't know what im blabbin here again.. :S sometimes i wonder why i have nothing better to talk, sometimes i wonder why im so boring .. guess its all mindsets.

im just stubborn to change. maybe that's why. maybe i don't know how and when to change? or maybe these are excuses? anyways 19 this year right?

那就我和我最後的倔強！五月天！我終于等到這一天了！！ ^^

JJ Lin- Party 4 ^^

2010-03-29T00:22:00.008+08:00

:D hehe so overwhelmed by this event, once again its my first autograph event from an idol that i had listened for the past 6 years! ^^

Thinking back when I first heard JJ's music was 14 years old! omg! im 19 now!!

He was adorable ^^. hahax although what i really hated in this session was that there were 3 very very freaking tall people that totally blocked my view!! I could only see some very small parts under their arms/ elbows = = gosh they were kinda horrifying and horrible >.<"

other than that, was enjoyable ^^ JJ sang a couple of new songs, although I wished the duration was another hour longer!! hehe but it was good enough, I am thankful that to the end of the event, he stood infront of my friend and my view while singing the last 2 songs 第幾個一百天 & 無法克制!! omg i finally made myself loose and tried to find the perfect angle to look at him!! omg! my friend and i were so close to the stage if that 3 stupid tall people would have stand behind us!! omg!! it would be more than awesome!
There was one angle he looked at me (well, cant really generalise it, but i can feel that it was me!!) aww so happy at least get to see him w/o being blocked >.<" so the sitting, waiting and standing of 2 hrs were all worth it!

The best part was that, my friend and I got the chance to get into the top 20 people to get the albums signed!! so cool, we don't have to wait so long. plus JJ! aiyo! his cute stares are really very attractive! got a closer look at him while he signed my album! omg he looks thinner && he looks cute when he smiles ^^ the dimples aiyoyo ..
what the >.<" it sounds like im crushin' for some mr. impossibles again = ="" this is awesome! hahax get the chance to shake his hands and the top 20 people's signatures will be the best that i could ever dream off!

hehe 這張專輯將會陪伴我度過接下來的縂縂困難和所有的一百天！嗯，我不能放棄！相信失敗並不是永遠的！縂有一天我一定出人頭地，無論我將來會做什麽、會不會有機會朝向自己真正想要的職業。這些都沒關係了，只要我知道音樂永遠存在，我的心是永遠不會承認失敗！我相信人不只有一次機會而是無數的機會！讓接下來的一百天證明我的存在是值得的！

--冷靜思考，智慧無限。--

aiya the lucky draw person so lucky.. 1948.. why not 1920!! hahax psps.

JJ 加油！大家加油！

--The Hurt Locker--

2010-03-08T23:11:00.003+08:00

After today's surprising 82nd Oscars Award, which i thought the best motion picture would be credited to Avatar.. Nevertheless, The Hurt Locker won more awards than Avatar!

I was amazed actually. I am watchin' The Hurt Locker now, and found their use of military terms are quite interesting, this movie definitely show the world how the US army were in the Iraq war and I'm quite touched by this movie. Very interesting plot, kept me thinkin' about those cool gadgets that were used, although i know the gadgets are highly sensitive weapons that can blast one into pieces of ash.

Way to go!! EOD rocks! how i wish i could serve the country; to be part of the bomb disposal team! isn't it great to be a bomb defuser? LOL i must be out of my mind!
yea,, but its a way of expression of a true patriot!

hmm after this, maybe i'll watch invictus tmr.. heard that morgan freeman acted as nelson mandela??!! my gosh i always thought they were the same person (or had some relation) but they really look alike >.<"

anyways this is what i had learn from The Hurt Locker today:

"The rush of battle is often a potent and lethal addiction, for war is a drug."-- Chris Hedges

I didnt get this quote until the end of the movie, don't want to spoil the film, so if you're curious, go take a look! ps. not suitable for people who cannot take vulgar language and violent (disturbing) images. There were about 2 scenes that were disturbing, other than that it should be ok.

Continue from Chris Hedges "War exposes the capacity for evil that lurks just below the surface within all of us." this sounded as if there's just no "good" people surviving on this world isn't it? Samborn said something really meaningful in the film, if our parents (the closest ones) couldn't support us, what are we in the outside world? (for them in the desert) who else could we ever trust in this life? Everyday people live in lies and fears and betrayal somehow we just lost our sense of belonging..

When you are all alone, no one is going to save you; only you are going to get yourself out of that situation. Life is a battle of wars, victory or defeat, you are the one who choose it. The chance is 50/50 either you win or loose, but in life, things do not last forever, you will win and you will loose. In the end, it does not matter who wins or looses, what matters are the history that were written in your memory. When the whole world is going against you, stand firm on your feet! Don't surrender to your fears! Pick up the gun and fire!! When the border line is drawn clear, show no mercy!

Mamamia the apathised world >.<" its just like hello apathy, goodbye empathy.

overall, kind of an interesting documentary to people who are interested in history and war film, other wise keep the peace @_@!

alright peace out world!

Happy Birthday Clara Koh!

2010-03-03T23:14:00.004+08:00

:D hahax although its already 4th of March but i'll keep this post as the 3rd, since i really don't have the time to post one yesterday!

overall, i feel really surprised this year! i never knew my Uni friends will celebrate my b-day with me! I never knew that 2 of my Uni friends will sacrifice their only free slot just to pop to Seng Kang and get a cake! (i presume they bought it at Seng Kang, forgot to ask where they got the cake >.<") and i never, never believe that people still saw me on facebook! i thought i was invisible all the time!

i was so overwhelmed at the moment i saw the cake :D hahax thanks to those friendly people! although haven't really get to know them very well, or i shall say that it was the first day we actually talked, you people are the best! :D showed me what friends are really for :D you people placed back some of my long lost chapters of friendships back home! This feeling is irreplaceable! I have too many people I would like to thank, i hope its already done nicely on facebook, here i'll keep it general, those who celebrated, wished and just brighten up my life, you know what?? Clara Koh wants to say she loves you all very much, and will keep that in her memory forever!

PS. thanks Shakthi and Corde for the ktv treat today! I just wanted you all to have fun! Wished Nicole and Steph was there too! But we'll replan again! :D hahax
now im currently feelin' abit sober.. >.<" although i should be laying flat on the bed, but after Dr. Foo's Brain and Behaviour lecture! LOL i really feel more awaken than ever! it's like his lame jokes really got me to finish the 2.5 hrs intro lect. and then i found that he likes to use acronyms and abbreviations to keep the class interested.. such as pHD =?? Permanent Head Damage! LOL maybe its true after we study for too long a period our brain will be severely damaged!

anyways! 19~~ hahah my very last teenage year! must treasure! next yr we'll see what happens!

>.<" im home..

2010-02-27T13:25:00.002+08:00

yup i think the best feeling that im goin' thru is this:

"I never knew I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears" --Over My Head, The Fray

yet im still wishing someone out there to find me:

"Where were you when the everything was falling apart
All my days were spent by the telephone that never rang
And all I needed was a call that never came..
Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor surrounded, surrounded
Why'd have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me." --You Found Me, The Fray

hmm im really glad to be home once again, although i know within the past months i had a seriously crappy record, i made 2 adults hated me with 2 months, lol what's more to come huh? im so lookin' forward to it. and there's nothing more on this world that im holdin' on to live on. Seriously nothing that is holdin' me on to live on. But yet, im still seeing the sun rises and sets.

sometimes, a person needs to sit down and think through what had happened, it may take days and days, months over months and even years to understand why.
it never took me days, it never took me months either, i think the key is to let age grow and you'll finally understand why. and yup, nothing much to talk about this trip cause everyone in the family falls apart, im trying so hard to save something that does not involve me in the story. yes, i admit that i do not exist in their love story, but, one thing i still gotta stand up for is that if there's no love exist why do you want to drag down the other party? why should there be violence throughout the whole damn relationship? i can handle just about anything, but i can never allow violence in my eyes. so yea conclusion was that DAD = Disappointed And Disappointing

but live goes on and on and on and on. it never ends until you find out why. but anyhow.. >.<" im having this jet lag feeling although i slept the moment i reached home.. still im feeling tired.. ok i hope everyone feels better for tomorrow, we must hope for the better, no matter how bad the situation you're goin' through today!!

Year 1: Sem 1 Exam: Completed!!

2010-01-30T00:57:00.002+08:00

hahax ^^ thanks to my friends, had a great great dinner at chomp chomp.. thank the lord I did not met Aunt >.<" I think in this life I will never be in any good terms with her anymore..

lol sometimes its really you believe or not.. some people tend to meet more stupid incidences and more curvy roads in their lives, and for me, its like episodic type of incidences.. maybe because i live such a good life that problems like this occurs. No one else will prolly gets it but me.

Well, no matter what, everyone had their own solitary moments of miseries and misfortunes, one side that they will choose not to let anyone knows.

But all in all, I had a great and super full dinner at chomp chomp. :D we analysed which ice kachang was better.. and in the end we talked out the pros and cons.. PS. >.<" there was this unneccessary fight over the "亞達子" lol! and erm corn avalanche >.<" hahaha.

Wow.. suddenly felt the stress-relief feeling, I think everyone feels that too :D.

I am so tired but internally I don't feel like sleeping. >.<"

Just can't believe I find it hard breathing lately, hopefully, its just because of the stress. This morning (yesterday), I had these series of panic attacks.. = ="

It seldom comes to me, the most was to feel the adrenaline rush but there was this sensation that I felt.. I could hardly breathe normally and I felt nausea along with the hyperventilation.. = ="" omg..

this is really not what i want things to turn out.. *finger crossed*

Clara Koh!! you must take things 1 step at a time!! I think you're going to drive yourself nutz if you continue to force yourself to your limits!!

Lesson to overcome for now: let my mind rest.. let my mindset change, get myself out of that whole mindset of stresses.. let go of what will happen to my family, let go of what will happen to my studies.. let go of the future.. Just live for today!!

Live today 'til the fullest!!

Lesson learnt: When you overthink, you tend to loose yourself. And when you loose yourself, it is either very hard for you to find yourself, or you need to seek help! If you find yourself lost, get out in the society.. Make some friends.. and prolly things will get better.. Unless >.<" you meet friends that will really make you believe that solitude is better than groups.. then find something that you can hold on for a long time. A passion for life, something so interesting that will keep you occupied. And the next step is what im trying to learn. Since I'm such a loser >.<" nothing seems to holds me down.. I need to do something, keep searching for new things that can keep me interested.. i swear i never want to relaspe again.

Year 1: Sem 1 Exam

2010-01-20T12:23:00.002+08:00

>.<" heels over head. that's all i can describe the amount of pressure that's on me now.

I really want to do well, so im tryin' to stress myself. but for some reasons, im the type that cannot take stress, once im stressed out, i will start escaping, i will want to get out.

And yes, that is one part of my M.O. that I cannot change. very weird, yet, i can't help it.

so im going to be having my exam on 28th and 29th of this month! hopefully, i can blog again before i depart to China. Well, as far as I know, China officially blocks youtube, facebook, blogger >.<", and soon to be: google.

omg >.<" i wonder what i will do over there for that 1 month, i know i will watch animes but i cannot assure myself that it will be able to last me for a month.

hahax. anyways, this trip is another self-reflection trip. just like the previous one when i visited 九寨溝. and then when im back from China, hopefully, things could change a little, although i should not be so optimistic about it, everytime im hoping for unrealistic things, this time i shall accept the fact.

but still.. its my character to day dream. to think of impossibilities and tryin' to make it possible. im always optimistic, i was never a pessimist, just prolly due to long-term untreated depress that's all.

anywayzz i better get goin' ~~ ah!

陶喆-- 上太空說演唱會!!

2010-01-09T00:41:00.004+08:00

OMG! Need to thank Nicole and her friends for inviting me over to this concert!

I am so overwhelm right now, 'cause this is the very first mando pop artist concert I have ever went to!! I never thought my first will be David Tao!! and his live singing was like playing from a CD! It was so good! And Im very sure it's not lip sync, there were many many variation to his voice! and I really enjoyed it!

Omg! I will have to say his guitar skills was professional ! no matter acoustic/ electric! He gave the audience plus the fans the most!! Yup he encourage every1 that whoever is trying to learn something dont give up, the reason he could slam the guitar today was all the effort placed when he was about a 12 yrs old boy, practicing the guitar everyday, at the dining table, sitting in the toilet! OMG! so funny! but yea~ I will strive for my driving and also my guitar skills!! one day i oso want to be as pro as you are!!

I didn't know DT was such a humourous guy!! He kept the audience in some sort of excited mood, especially me >.<" I laughed so hard when he tried to crack those jokes. When he said his dad was influence by Elvis Presley while mum was an opera singer! and him saying if that were music, he'll not compose anymore!!
omg! can;t believe he was such a funny guy!
plus he hardly rest in between, but yes!! I love all his songs! omg 首首都印象深刻！！

Nope i never regretted for going today! I actually wanted more from him! but it was a great pleasure for him to share all the artists that had influenced him to become such a successful singer today. I wish him all the best in future! yes! and i hope Singapore can continue to keep the paparazzi profile low! Ahh~ can't wait for his next actual concert!

Today was a blast! I screamed so many times >.<" like a maddo.. yup hope to post some pics tomorrow! Meanwhile~ im going to listen to his music until I doze off :D

psps! DT was so funny.. he said he was so sick of playing 普通朋友。。 everytime he strikes the guitar notes the crowds go woo wow ahh~~ but when the crowd started clapping to the beat.. he was like :S argh so distracted by it! so this time he ask us not to clap but to sing along~ aww so nice ~ plus i love the remix version of 小鎮姑娘! 哎喲！超讚的！！ hehe~ playing one of his songs from the current 69樂章 album~~

ok good nite bloggy~ clara koh is so happy today^^

Many Thanks Cousins~

2010-01-04T22:54:00.003+08:00

thanks for the 2 of your support!

:D actually i was thinking of the worst scenario, and since i had even gone thru such situations before without any relatives by my side.

But having you 2 around really brighten up my day !!

at least i know coming back to home isnt the wrong choice :D

i wont forget today, i was actually supported by 2 of my cousins!

really admire the 2 of your courage! hahax, no matter what happens remember be careful of what you do :D hahax.

hmm i think that's all for now, we shall see if we have time for lunch sometime :D

I hope the band hero was not such a pain in the neck for you two hahax hope you two enjoyed it >.<" although there were some technical errors in between.

yup, for now just like that ba, hope after cny.. things will change better, and me be more careful~~

hahax thanks again! (i very long never feel that people will stand by me, that's why i might be a little over hahax 請不要見怪)

An Incident, an Apology.

2010-01-03T13:18:00.002+08:00

ok let me say this clear, once and for all. I may be out of my mind yesterday, whatever I do prolly its still my fault ok?

Yet, Im here being humbled before you all. Sincerely, I apologise to all that I've hurt deeply. I have seen the outcome of many such situations, and I wonder why my problems always seem "such a big deal". Maybe many of many have higher expectations of me than any others.

However, I am human. Human just like you.
"To err is human; to forgive is divine." by Alexander Pope
Unless, you're not human and you dont error.

I am not hoping for forgiveness, nor you to accept my apology.
Just that I want you to know, I make mistakes, all humans are non-perfect.
We make mistakes as we grow. To me, I will definitely make more than you. Because I am young and naive, I have yet to experience more difficult process in my life than you do. And you are a person that have seen much more of such problems than I do.

Nevertheless, there is this lesson I would like to share with you all. I have realised that in some point of your life, there will be this one person that you trust the most will hurt you the most. This could lead to dysfunctional in the future life. Yet, the longer you hold the grudge, the longer you will never get out of that misery. As I quoted before.. Human tends to error, we just cannot prevent it from happening. I found this story by David Mills.

"How heavy is this glass of water?
A lecturer raised a glass of water in his hand, extended his arm and asked "How heavy is this?" Answers ranged from 300g to 500g. The lecturer replied "The absolute weight doesn't matter. It depends on how long I try and hold it. If I hold it for a minute that's not a problem. If I hold it for an hour, I'll have an ache in my arm. If I hold it for a day, you'll have to call an ambulance. In each case it's the same weight, but the longer I hold it the heavier it becomes.

So, where does this apply in life?

To an unkind comment someone may once have made about you.
To a time in your life when you didn't act as well as you could have done.
To a disappointment you experienced when an expectation of yours was not met.
To a difficult childhood, a divorce, a job loss, you can fill in the rest.

The burden gets heavier the longer you carry it.
You either say goodbye to the past or you say goodbye to the future.

© 2010 David Mills."

http://www.enmore.org/forgiveness-issues.htm

Well, what had done was done, no way of going back. and whatever she says is correct, so have it her way. I don't care whatever others say to me, if they want to blame me, go ahead, want to scold me, go ahead, whatever punishments, im all ready to take. I am taking full responsibilities for every word I said and every action I did.

No matter what they say will never bring me down, cause I only allow 1 person to judge me that is the eyes of God!
and clara koh.. welcome to the real world.

不准得罪我!

2010-01-02T14:47:00.002+08:00

看來我不來一點下馬威是不行的！

我真的要警告所有人，不要以爲我真的很好欺負！

可能我很隨便，一點小事我都不想計較。。

但是如果你還是要得寸進尺。。我不得不先警告你，你不想知道的後果。。

本小姐沒那麽空閒在這裡打這些字。。只是覺得我越認識的人偏偏就是要爬進我的脛骨裏。。

我真的很煩。。 (paranoid = =)

ps. 以後我沒有叫'你'拿走的東西不要認爲我已經叫'你'拿了！佛則屬於我的東西突然被別人拿走我可是會非常生氣的！！

>.<" 莫明其妙！！請切記。。這是我從小到大的毛病。。我討厭別人乘我不在家的時候隨便把我任何一樣東西拿走。。本小姐小時后還不懂，所以沒有辦法抵抗大人的話。。但是我長大了！！碰什麽東西都要讓我知道！！更何況是把食物給人家！！！要給也是我自己親手給！！不是你這個外人給！所以不要得罪我！！

佛則我真的會生氣！！

1.1.2010. today, i made a wish.

2010-01-01T17:06:00.002+08:00

wow.. sorry my dear bloggy, i did not upload the photos for Genting, && i have not been able to post that entry..

yet, i don't want to waste the day (1.1.2010)..

so yup, just sent off my mum and bro to the airport, currently the teletext says "last call" ..hmm life is goin' to be boring again ..

yet, i think this year i made a realistic wish. just hope that it will come true :D!

other than that i think this wish is able to share with all, that is? I hope 2010 things will get better!! no matter politics, economics or socially!! I hope to see unity in the world! lol

hmm other than that, i know my final exams are coming this month end.. :S i think i need to start revising day in day out. so i really have no time for entertainments aft 4th of Jan :(..

aiyo.. ok i better go check the teletxt.. when it says "depart" imma head for a shower~~ ok sorry bloggy this is a quick one, hope to post the genting entry ASAP!

Best wishes to everyone in 2010~~

海派甜心~~ && Holiday Mood!!

2009-12-22T17:13:00.002+08:00

xD! yeah! 今天“我”回來了！！

爲什麽呢？因爲終于要放假了！！

嘿嘿！等好久喔！

終于可以離我的腦一些距離。。

真的很害怕自己想過多，不知道會做出什麽事 >.<"

希望接下來的那三天假期裏可以盡情的玩！這樣開學后，就要認真了因爲期末考就要來了。。

今天會開心的原因是。。我克服了一個障礙，這次我沒有逃避問題！

這次，我又踫到了那個討厭的駕駛員。。吼！他真的很欠扁。。

= =" 很愛說反話，然後我爸爸的一舉一動突然能在他身上找到似的。。

不知道這種感覺是一種懷念還是看上去就不爽！

唉。。沒辦法啦，要學就是要辛苦，只好黨他們唱歌就吸收那些重點。

不過最近有一部讓我又笑又哭的戯叫做。。海派甜心！！最近有好多人都在看喔！

:D 哈哈，真希望下一集薛海能變回達浪和寶珠在一起哈哈哈 >.<"

我知道我很幼稚。。但是真的期待著這樣的結局！！

但是説不上爲什麽這部戯居然能勾起一些回憶，而且是一陣一陣的回憶。。

有點難受但是！！我醜布拉基椰子頭一定可以渡過難關的！！

盡情期待那一天的到來！！

~待續~

ps. 先祝大家聖誕節快樂~，可能會過了聖誕節再寫。。所以下星期回來再續寫我怎麽在云頂度過的聖誕節！

突然覺得"我不在"

2009-12-17T23:46:00.004+08:00

今天想用中文。。

不知道爲什麽，最近的我很不是我。

我好像失去了什麽，又覺得最近好多事情很不順利。

唉。。怎麽說呢？都是人生必要經歷的過程啊。

我突然好累好累，有些人應該覺得我好沒用吧。。

有金錢過活，有屋子住（還能自己住）。。什麽都有，什麽煩惱都沒有。

但是你們是否曾經體驗過我的生活呢？

看透我的人生吧。。我的人生其實並不快樂，我擁有了這些大家都拼了命想得到的東西，

但是我卻只少了個快樂、簡單、無憂無慮地生活。

快樂？它最基本的因素是什麽？好久沒有感覺到快樂，雖然天天都在搞笑可是心裏面卻有好多難言之語。

簡單？我真的很怕那些複雜，心理很脆弱的人。。好怕我莫名其妙得罪人似的。。他們總是說不在乎，可是動作已經在告訴你他們經受不起。。 :S 所以我說不要僞裝自己，這反而讓人無法感受到你真正的傷。。

如果我知道，我就會盡力不去踫到你的傷口啊。。如果你從不放下武器，從不卸妝。。我怎麽會猜得到你的真實的感処呢？

突然覺得大家好陌生，我其實開始有點害怕了。。我其實已經開始在逃了。。我又來了，我又不去面對問題了。

今天的我，思緒很亂，不想説話。我好怕用真心面對大家。。因爲大家都覺得我是社會上的昏庸。。

天啊。。我不想面對啊。。好難面對啊。。我想睡覺！！明天會好點！！應該會吧。。

我只知道。我的心裏很疲倦。我不想呼吸。。只想沉睡不醒。。。只怕明天醒來了又得面對種種困難。

每個人都跟我說同樣的東西，爲什麽他們能這樣生活？活在別人的批評下。。不覺得累嗎？人生是一直往前沖的嗎？

傻傻的，不管有沒有理想地往前沖。。這樣快樂嗎？你們不覺得很單調嗎？不覺得人生短暫，應該去感受它的美，去體驗所有的景色嗎？

我不懂。真的不懂爲什麽這社會這麽複雜。我只知道，我不可以棄權。。這場是生死戰。我放棄就代表我擧白旗。。我不能認輸。我要戰下去，如果戰死了，石碑上也會刻著我的大名！！

所以許思慧不可以承認輸！！因爲是吃虧的！不能再讓自己吃虧，不管別人怎麽說，總之讓自己生存才是優勝者！！

人生是一場生死戰，也是一場遊戲、一場夢。只願自己不要放棄自己，不能讓任何風吹雨打給吹走！我是一顆堅強的樹！！矮小，根卻很扎實!!

End of Mid-Term &&

2009-12-08T19:27:00.005+08:00

Yes!! finally, mid-terms are over, at a moment. i can have some peace of mind.

lately, i can't sleep normally again.. :S its like i have to sleep at 2am everyday..

can;t even convince myself for that tmr hv class.. sighz but anyways!! can't wait

for mum to come bk from China >.<" the thing is that i have to pick her up like

5-6 am in the mornin' >.<" great! Will get the chance to take the first train in the morning of Saturday 12th Dec!! LOL. (ps. this is the first time i'm going to take the earliest train)

good thing i can eat at changi airport again!! love the food there, maybe im still not very familiar with the places where good food are in SG!! but nvm.. i'll find my way out. :D

yup yup, can't wait to spend my christmas with my family :D. lol I was thinking who to spend with before, but now im saved!! thanks to the guardian angels up in the sky for listenin' to my prayers ^^. thanks for guardin' me while im all alone!!

nvm~~ lately i've been practising drivin' quite alot, so i guess, very soon my good friend will be my car~~ so i can just go anywhere with "him" :D lol
anyways i gtg again ..ahh essays and essays and essays plus 1 lab report!!
okok better go finish them!!

Twilight Saga: New Moon!!!

2009-12-04T19:30:00.002+08:00

OMGaaa~~ although the endin' took my breath away!! BUT!! I want more!! Im totally drown into the movie!!

ah thanks Shakthi for organising this!! & her friend Seettha for booking the couple seats ticket!! OMGaa~~ I love New Moon!! so cool!

The battle between Vampires and Werewolves!! My favourite quote in the movie!!

"I just couldn't live in a world where you didn't exist." -- Edward Cullen

Omg!! yup this brings back memories where he said Bella was his own brand of heroin!!

love it! 21st century R + J new romance! Too dangerous to love, too fragile to kill!!

Yup! its a good movie, definitely one of the best in 2009! ahh wish i could watch Avatar! my goodness! you won't believe the graphics of that show was so good!

but.. sighz had watched too many movies this year >.<" P.S. The Cathay's screen looks much better than GV's?! Why is this so?! lol but anyways!! gonna had a good dream tonight!

peace! gonna start work right aft a good bath! :D!

Don't Assume the Signals!! + OMGaa!!

2009-11-30T16:02:00.003+08:00

!! LOL went for driving lessons today.. finally! I get to meet another instructor and another car! this car's steering was kinda bad :S.. keep having the tendency to turn right, once i left the steering at the centre it keeps drifting to the right !!

and the instructor said it was my problem for not adjusting the steering.. ehh okok whatever you say is correct. >.<" so yup today learnt a very impt lesson that I cannot assume and rely on other car's signal ..:S

when they signal right, sometimes it does not mean that they wanna turn right.. same for left! so this kinda reminds me that sometimes when people tell me their intention, i do not always have to follow exactly >.<" omg.. i need to have a very strong cognitive mind!!!!!!! LOL, I am the one that often easily led, and misled others.. so yea "im just a minor threat so pay no mind"? -- Good Charlotte- The Anthem LOL my god >.<" i eventually just made the instructor laugh too ..

they always find that im so careful that they try to make obstacles for me to overcome my fears and kinda like those "real" situations one will prolly meet on the road..

PS!! im suppose to come in and give a short one!! but!! ahh OMGaa! this week is mid-term exam! so i better go get myself prepared for tmr!! P.s. theres like so much readings to do for PY1101 = ="" luckily i only have 3 exams for this semester..

next semester ..omgaa dunno >.<" don't wanna think about that first!! ahh OMGaa ~~
runnin' out of time again!! i'll blog again!!

The Singer- Leona Lewis

2009-11-28T11:22:00.002+08:00

I don't know what more to say about this singer, yesterday I went to gramophone (@the cathay) just to check out some music CD's. Actually I wanted to visit Sembawang Music store @PS.. but >.< they moved out!! omg.. luckily I remember there's a big music store at the cathay..

so my main motif was to find Leona Lewis's Spirit + Echo album. But I came to a realisation that both albums will cost me $40 sing dollars.. Yet, I chose to buy them. Why? Well, after all the eras of good singers like Whitney Houston, Tina Turner, Mariah Carey and many more!

Leona Lewis popped out in a sudden during 2007~2008 with a stunning voice! The way that she sings, the way she controls her breath to every word has a meaning to it. Once I actually saw her blog saying that when she sings to a song, the lyrics must have meanings to her and she will portray the song as if she is going through the same emotions.

Wow, how many singers could sing with soul now a days? :D Thank the lord, I found her singing "I Will Always Love You" (original by Whitney Houston), on X-Factor! Also, when I really find that there's not much music to listen to.. "Bleeding Love" came along then "Footprints in the Sand".. It is so astonishing to see this singer grow in her music career!

To singers or just people who are jealous about Leona Lewis's achievements.. I highly recommend you to play her records, sit down, relax and listen to her voice. Feel the soul in it! And you'll get what I meant, don't be jealous. Learn from her instead! If she was once inspired by the singers that you were also inspired by, look at what she found. She found her voice in them, and with time you will also find your way. Hmm, don't give up on good music!

Cultivate Your Eye Point!

2009-11-24T11:09:00.006+08:00

okay basically, i went for the 8:15am practical.

my god! it feels so refreshing to wake up early at 6-7am?

:D it was a real fun. I don't know why but this instructor kept picking me as his student?

I never really "booked" for this instructor but he kept taking me in as a student and this is the 3rd time?

LOL is it really good to have a fixed instructor? to me i don't think so though cos the test instructor ain't goin' to be the same instructor what.. its better to know different instructor, different style :S.. isn't it?

hmm.. but anyways got myself into jeopardy today.. almost got into a car accident. my goodness, i did not realise i was so slow at changin' my eye point :( so Clara Koh! You gotta train your eyesight!!

one thing that i learnt today was ..the instructor eventually brought me to all sorts of obstacles. he wanted me to overcome all situations and all fears. step by step. yet, i can't seem to overcome until he brought me out of the circuit! OMG! the taxis were dead scary, they cut my line in some no stupid reasons.. just because im a learning car :(! scare the hell out of me.. = ="

but i managed to drive like 2 rounds outside the circuit and I felt sorry for the instructor .. cos i acted like a "suaku" >.<" i was over reacting to the situation .. >.<" and he just thinks im like a kid driving on the road. and sure i saw many other drivers think that im an underage kid driving! LOL! bahahahah so funny!!

can't imagine the day when i really pass the driving! omg! im really goin' anywhere i want! basically, for now all i need is to cultivate the sequence to the mirror/ blind spot checking. then, stay in lane.. >.< im always drifting to either the left or right..stay focus! stay in the centre! right after all this, i have to judge the amount of steering to the front wheels so that the rear doesn't roll over the kerb! :S MY GOODNESS! i have to manipulate all these actions >.<" ha.ha.ha. what if i took manual? .. i wonder where will i be now.. plus it seems to me long driving can really make one fall asleep while drivin' :(.. hang in there clara koh!!

P.S. ok this is voluntary.. helping a friend to promote her blogshop!
anyone interested can visit: http://sixteeenhundred.blogspot.com/
:D enjoy~

Cultural Experience! + Band Chaos!!!

2009-11-21T15:18:00.002+08:00

First of all, thanks Shakthi for inviting me over to such a nice performance!

Yes, I love it, I love her facial expressions and every stamp on the feet that goes with the beat! :D overall, it was a very nice experience for me! Thanks!

I've learn not to give up on my passion too! xD

hmm.. the band today was not impressive, it was too chaotic, the leader don't know what he was doing. He mainly just wanna perform but causes too much unnecessary crap :S..

kinda say its a waste of time for me cos, too many people and mainly all girls never get the chance to sing at all. i were so pissed cause the guys arent cooperative.

and so? today all they played was the first verse and chorus of David Archuleta's Crush = =""" OMG i just can't stop thinkin' about the chaos..

lol i left straight away when time's up. I never like disorganise band instructions.. :S i think im better off with my band too = =" so i think i'll leave this band as well.. since there's just too many people and i don't stand a chance to sing and perform.. ps. i don't want people to show off their skills to me when they know they aren't that good :S why can't they just keep that proud and arrogant actions down??? = =" conclusion: this band has no chemistry at all..

:D friends came by Jammin'!!

2009-11-19T22:34:00.002+08:00

To Nicole: thanks for making today work, I guess without you being the first one to say you wanna stop by, I think the others just don't know when they'll have the time!
You're very welcome to come jam the band hero again! :D

To Shakthi: Although you left early, I hope you enjoyed your time at my house as well as the band hero. You're very welcome to stop by and jam again!

To Stephanie: Ah! You're the one I wanna thank the most, really didn't expect you would skipped the tutorial just to sacrifice in the rain and to stop by my house for the band hero! Really touched and appreciate your appearance today!! You're very welcome to come jam the band hero again! :D

To Cordelia: :D hahax you're the funny one today .. really thought you knew my place . but anyways, thank you for coming, thank you for sacrificing in the rain >.<". Though maybe band hero might not be in your interest.. you're also welcome to stop by and study in future!:D

okay really shldnt play today..shld've taken some photos of you guys, but suddenly i just forgot what i was doin' >.< maybe next time i shld! :D

all in all hope you guys had a fun day . im sorry that steph and corde were caught up in the rain! next time let me know i'll get you ppl an umbrella!!
lol i was quite impressed with the skills u ppl produce man! i spent weeks just to master a song, u guys master them so quickly!! ah esp. nicole! go learn drums la! u've got potential!

ah anyways.. im tired. dishes in the sink dun feel like touchin' them but i've gotta bathe now!! so tata blog! i'll see u again~

21.12.2012

2009-11-15T22:26:00.011+08:00

All the natural disasters that we are seeing now, all the things that were out of our league or were in control?

All the courtesy, manners and kindness that were buried by human beings (ourselves). Will we be united on 21.12.2012 the day we call it the doomsday? Or will there be a light of hope for future?

Who will know what will really happen on that day? Prophets can't tell for sure, Mayans had their own calculations. Religions have their own beliefs. And me?

I think I will join my family in China and lets get aboard the arc!
= =!

NO! that's not it! Clearly, the movie 2012 is trying to tell human beings to wake up!
Look at all the civilisations that we have done! What we've created are going to be wasted if we're taking them for granted! We are clearly all selfish human beings, we forgot how our ancestors worked so hard, so that we, the newer generation live the better life.

Yet, all this has seem to fail them. More and more frequent natural disasters are there to remind us about ourselves. To humble ourselves as human beings. Unfortunately, we the humans never seem to change, we never seem to learn from what is going on now.

And tomorrow, it will still be the same, no one is trying to make a change! Our governments are still setting their minds on future economy crisis problems.

But hello world, if we don't bother to look at our mother Earth, and she falls sick..
Will there be any economy crisis problems? By then, we the human kinds are all going to be vanished within a few seconds... What we should be concern of is our health, before we talk about all the other needs.

Just feel that this movie is a very good reminder, and a harsh one. We need to know that destroying the Earth is the same theory as putting food into our mouths.. Within seconds we could be gone. P.S. Im not brainwashed >.<" lol just feel very motivated by this movie. At a same time, I feel sympathy yet angry that human always make this mistake that is: "When there is a catastrophic disaster, we unite each other." However, "when it's just a normal daily routine.. we are just so ignorant, arrogant, cruel, rude and self-centered."

I think we need to make a change.. WE need. It's not just me but WE.

3rd Day with Band Hero!!

2009-11-11T21:24:00.006+08:00

:D after having Band Hero in my life, i promise myself to work hard on my modules !!

this is the best game ever.. well all rhythmic games are the best! Hopefully..

Christmas I can get a set of guitar for the sake of more people can play the bass part etc. ..hmm how i wish someone can get it for me as present?

LOL >.<" but seriously.. lately spend money of food and transportation can kill one already.. so prolly.. gonna save some at a moment. can't just go on like that.

= =" but yea anyways. Band Hero is so cool currenly, i like the drums for Bring Me Back To Life, Dirty Little Secrets and one more that suddenly slips from my mind.

erm for the guitar part i like Dirty Little Secrets, She'll Be Loved, Ocean Avenue.

For singing at a moment the best I can score is Beautiful Soul! LOL man. these 3 days I only use the mic on the first day I bought it >.<"

lol anyways below are some pics of how the Band Hero look like!

Drums!

Guitar!

Mic!

lol >.< ahh guess they're the best friends in the world! :D!

Thanks Cousin! & Band Hero!!

2009-11-10T00:27:00.003+08:00

:D lol before i really go to sleep, here goes a post to my beloved cousin!

omg! I did not know Band Hero was so heavy! and without your help i think i might ended up Funan's idiot today.

thanks for all the help including sheltering me with the umbrella :D.

hmm omg im so fascinated with the game! already hooked to it so im goin' to play it after sch tmr! hahax .

yet i have to figure out how to download songs into the game?! sighz..

ok i'll crack that tmr.. :D

aiyo i dont feel like attendin' tmr's lecture its so boring by that richard McD.!

really its Mc Donough! sounds like McDonalds?! = =""

ok aiyo so tired then feel so awkward that 3 doors down's song start playing in my head again. great! but yea this song goes to all those ppl who are on my mind now.

well im just here without you all! and i miss the days we were together just sit down and stare and laugh. yea i miss those days.. i dunno something is just missing yet its ambiguous >.<..ah its 12:35 am! i better go get some sleep !! :D

band hero ~~ cant wait to play it tmr!!

Zouk + Phuture Experience

2009-11-05T15:11:00.002+08:00

okay.. time for confession. so I was at Zouk yesterday night O.O

lol tried 2 shots and got high a little = =" lucky i didnt got drunk, neither i went home alone! ah thanks to my friends for sending me home.

lol p.s. :S didn't expect this was what it was supposed to be but then at least i heard some nice music in the club.. so to keep me interested for awhile other than that.. ah lets just not talk about yestereday. just glad that everyone was fine (not in danger).

yea prolly im not the clubbin' type either :D my god. im so tired lor.. i want to sleep la.. PS. don't tell my mum ar! cos her emotional condition is freaking bad lately.. so i cannot add to her grieve ..plus just don't understand why im 18 yet im still like a small baby that needs so many attention and be taken care by everyone..

aiyo.. i really have to say sorry, cos i really didn't meant to attract people just for sympathy :S. and i hope that was not the main thing that ppl are concern about..
just hope i can prove to them that i can walk independently on my own.

:S sometimes just don't like help cos, its just so surreal but at a same time, those who helped out, you're the best :D

omg.. gotta head back to sch in a few hrs time for night classes. so yea.. = =.. thank god tmr's tutorial was in the afternoon ha! ok so lucky ps. monday have to head down to funan to check out the band hero..newer version of GHWT.. guess my money is worth it too for the latest gamezz. cousins can come over and friends can come over.. etc. omg.. im really having a headache.. blog again..

NUS CSC Mini Concert

2009-10-31T00:30:00.003+08:00

ehh. erm. what shall i say? NUS is abit 跌破眼镜啊..

Surprisingly, maybe NUS is better known as the Nerds area.

>.<" aiyo really aren't there good sound engineers and lighting crews from NUS??

thought NUS should be better with these area and people?

but then sadly, really only a bunch of people that kept creating this unnecessary feedback sound ..

people just don't understand that if the mics faces the resonance, there will surely be this loud squeaky or deep horn sound produced >.<""

but I think as my friend said Miao Ru was the best singer accompanied by the guy who was also a strong singer. all thanks to the vocals training at OBMusic Forest school?

nice Evelyn! see i met some Uni friends that also comes from that music school and they were very well trained indeed! I asked one of them but, unfortunately, he doesn't know you lol.

anyways really had a great night apart from the crazy scenarios and awkward sounds produced.. Hopefully, they manage better next time around..or will they even bother to care? the way they acted like "who cares?" aiyo.. guess this is the current city life eh? "who cares?" = =" what the.. where's the empathy people?!

or prolly, people just don't give a beep anymore.. ah whatever its time to sleep. tmr.. the aunty is coming early so.. yup! good nite Earth,,imma head to sleep
O.o..-.-

First Day of Sch (Uni Life)!!

2009-10-26T23:09:00.004+08:00

Lol im the one and only stupid person today to go to sch so early n then made myself like a dummy ..

i met another 3 new people today, one i forgot the name cos i really get to know at night, which my brain was already switched off by then ..

then met 2 very nice ladies :D Cordelia and Stephanie . lol although might not be able to meet every class but still. "Nice to meet you" the one and only common sentence to say.

woah tmr don't need to reach sch so early sighz hopefully i can sleep in until 10+ ahh then have to go to this very weird "coping mathematics course" which is like okok.. since my worst subj was maths i better go in for a tutorial plus to gain 2 credits? which i have no idea what is that use for?

blablabla anyways im really tired 3 hrs lecture straight only a few mins break really not enough. PS! anthropology is a nice course! (with a very funny lecturer which laughs at abt anything >.<) i've learnt more about people and cultures. although really gonna learn it in the second semester but still. really glad i had an overview cos, i find that some things are worth giving a try .

actually to correct myself i sat in two 3 hrs lecture so its total 6 hrs of lecture in 1 day :( woah i almost slept thru the night class when it started playing the movie. a little weird but, i think its worth it. now i know how eskimos travel tgt as a tribe :D you won't believe how smart they were just to use a canoe to cross the river! while after this nice video came this really weird video and i kept remembering the part where this native guy who just kept whining about the marraige and how many wives they can marry depending on their wealth and how big were their "houses" (straw houses) erm no offence in anyway. im very 3rd person view in this. not putting any personal feelings/ emotions to it.

well anywayszz i think i wanna sleep alr i can barely concentrate anymore.
blog again!

Orientation Day!!

2009-10-21T17:13:00.004+08:00

O.O kinda weird today, so long nv wake up so early. Felt really tired during the intro..+ the people were quite boring for some sort :S but at least one of them were quite entertaining thruout.. oh yea first of all i passed the BTTT, felt quite good abt it :D, and thanks cousins for celebrating with me yesterday..

today just got my timetable O.O gonna be so busy I think i've got 4 cores at the start of the year >.< but the business looks worst..they got 6 cores for year 1! mang thank lord! im not in business! plus met 2 person today in my course :D hopefully we'll get thru this yrs tgt. my god im setting this band activity!! hopefully people join! i dun want to be the only one who's playing an instrument!

today + tmr = study planner :S

friday -> head bk to sch for course enrollment and textbooks..

ps. txtbooks are so exp! 1st term's books are so exp already! but then cant photocopy frm others cos its breaking the law! OMG 10,000-20,000 sing dollar for copying books? that's really jaw dropping! anyways, all the best to myself!

im gonna work thru this yr! aim for good results!!
JIAYOU!!

Congrats to Yipo's Son.. and More Zac's :D

2009-10-18T17:30:00.011+08:00

lol okay so today.. thanks cousin Edwin for giving me a treat on the car plus sending me home. Many Thanks! ps. mercedes car door's are really heavy >.<"

ohh yup main point is to congrats Yipo's Son's marriage omg they look so nice?

the groom looks handsome, and the bride looks gorgeous but I only gets to shake the hands of the groom :S.. awkward wonder where was the bride .. heard she was home packing her stuff for the cruise they're going on tonight ?

ahh watever but i admit the groom has this attraction :( i admit he is handsome LOL
omg watever :S..and i admit im attracted to a wedded guy! omg i must be out of my mind!! but yea i think he does has an attractive looks that's why he got a nice looking bride ..well, wat a reality world ..

ps.. went to my cousin house today too took some pictures of Zac again! LOL im like a very free aunty dunno what to do at home everyday except for tryin to pass her stupid theories :( pls let me pass tmr !! lol okay imma take a rest :D

(grandma is the one with her back facing the camera, sitting beside grandma is her sister, sitting beside her sister is my mum's younger sister, the girl in turquoise is Cousin Zhi Ping)

(the person in purple is my mum's 3rd elder sister, and sitting there stretching is Cousin Edwin)

(the scenery outside Yipo's house)

(lol the things that we ate and the left overs on the table)

(Things that kept me alive throughout the 2 hrs boring session = =)

(My 2 very young little cousins Jowell and Joanne singing songs unplugged, and the 2 little boys sitting on the floor with a gameboy are Cousin Jovan and Zhi Xiong)

(Cousin Edna feeding Zac :D)

(Zac's sleeping soundly after milk :D)

"Always Look Far and Wide"

2009-10-14T19:05:00.002+08:00

Well, went back for driving practice today. and I learnt a whole lot more things.

wanna say that the instructors were very well trained and he could tell what im thinking off while driving.

he said "ahh you see, you're drifting off again." :D lol can't believe my heart wasnt really in the car today? cos i was really tired :(

I slept at 3 or 4 am today so sad.. i think i got an insomnia going on..so i started listening to this program from 12-3 am everyday.. by Desiree Lai on 98.7 fm.. :S

lol anyways, im glad i've learnt more than anything today. i've had the chance of multi-tasking in the rain once again :D.

somehow when driving i can ignore everything that's surrounding me :D even a flash of lightning. although i was still scared but driving was just too many things for me to comprehand that i couldn't even give a care at the lightning and thunder?

well, i didnt thought i would meet the same instructor again along with the same car (no. 113)?
:D hopefully today, i didnt fail you mr. instructor :D i've tried my best to stay alert and drive as a good driver :D. hopefully, if karma meets, i'll show you how much i've improved!

yeah~ drive.drive.drive for all time :D i promise i'll make it and i'll see who is the lucky one to be the first passenger in my car :D..well i assume it would be my family but in anycase? i hope its gonna be grandma HAHA! omg :S im so weird.
but first let me get my theories out of the way and thenn :D hehe

"we can go anywhere" :D

(500) Days of Summer ..& 1 day of Autumn

2009-10-12T21:05:00.002+08:00

:D alright, alright, alright.

hi, my dear blog! well nothing much today from me. but just an evaluation on

(500) days of summer and 1 day of autumn.

ahh what can i say? an extraordinary love story?

after watchin' this film. i came to a realisation that. i cant go on like this.

:D somethings are meant to be and somethings arent meant to be.

so no matter how strong that connection and attraction could be, one day it'll fade away.

it's true, i've seen that in Tom's character. He thought all he wanted was Summer.
He couldnt believe that what they had been through was nothing.. all or nothing at all..

yet, the story of his fate was trying to tell him that he was looking too hard for love. the love was always there, he just never seem to see it. and the only reason he knew was becos he ever had that moment in his life.

but yea whatever,,, relationships can really screwed up ones normal life. and the one who suffers are the ones who always seem to give the most. the one who cares the most. the one who puts in the most feeling and emotions. yea.. :S

overall not a bad movie at all! i love how romance and comedy could go tgt :D. its like 2 horoscopes blending in tgt :D. ahh im a lil weird today but :D its okay thats me clara koh.

alrighty i'll visit you (blog) again :D.

Sorority Row >.<"

2009-10-09T19:35:00.002+08:00

Omg.. seriously i think this show should rate for M18!! its too violent for NC-16

Mang.. my heart beat almost stopped as the murderer in a 'gown' with a 'hood' killed the girl who was drinking a wine bottle?

*vomits* suddenly i dun feel good :( that scene bothers me as well as the bathin' scene... and one thing my friend was so true about was that she knew before hand that i will hide under the movie chair? LOL

i was moving down the sit :(. and she was right i was so scared actually ..

my heartbeat stopped during one of the scene..

and then its all because there was this group of girls infront of me kept screaming ..

i was shocked inside of me but they just screamed off their lungs :S..

made me felt so tensed throughout the show..

i would say the director had made this show turned round and round.

and if you like mystery and mystery and mystery this is gonna be a good movie.

sound effects were great although they scared the hell out of me and i almost hide under the sit.

:D anyways thanks Evelyn for accompanying me to JJ's shop and also for the boredom of both of us to watch a horror- movie which we think its really rated too lenient for NC-16!! too much jumping horror scenes >.<" sighz i admit im really a 胆小鬼 ..

mang gonna get goosebumps tonight :(

Happy Mooncake Festival!

2009-10-03T11:38:00.002+08:00

So.. I slept at about 1 - 2 am erm today..and woke up at about 11+ am..

O.O kinda tired but anyways :D Yesterday was a whole lot of fun.

Cousin Pei Qi and I went to watch "Cloudy and a Chance of Meatballs".

LOL >.< the starting was really like a thesis.. "Have you ever find yourself different from others?" O.O wow I was kinda attracted to this sentence.

And then slowly as the cartoon progress.. LOL this scientist guy name flint..
he was so funny he invented many things w/o thinkin' about the consequences ..

first off was the spray-on shoes LOL which he wore for the rest of his life >.<.
second was the sardines problem.. and he invented this funny machine by using water to produce food. some how the machine was sent to the sky and started to drop burgers.. = = later on it started to drop more and more food, eventually the food upsized and could kill people? LOL this was the funniest comedy cartoon movie of the year.. and adam sandler was the voice for baby brent >.<" omg so funny
baby brent became a chicken >.<

Oh plus thanks cousin xue ying for lending the wii from her friends.. cause the games are very family fun, think will be very fun if there were 4 or more players to join in :D.

ok.. mooncake tonight! and ps. lantern = BABA (Buy And Burnt Away) ! lol

so yup song of the day = 陶喆- 月亮代表谁的心 :D

Celebrating Cousin's B-day in Advance

2009-10-02T00:18:00.007+08:00

Today went to Marina's K Box to sing and celebrate Cousin Xue Ying's birthday in advance.

By the way Happy Birthday to Trixie >.<" lol I know its kinda irrelevant but still..

Yes.. just remember during awaiting for cousin Xue Ying. Cousin Pei Qi and I met the mediacorp Edmund Chen along with his daughter and maid. lol for some reasons he looked at us and smiled as if we knew each other somewhere/ sometime ago. LOL but anyways it was a very awkward situation yet very cordial.. lol

So yup I hope everyone had fun today :D Was really happy because we had a larger and much comfortable room :D maybe next time my birthday i can treat you two to iluma's
ktv, can try out their services and facilities but hahax its gonna be 03.03.2010 .

hahax thanks to cousin's treat at Xin Wang Restaurant. I had a very full dinner although I think all of us were very full indeed. I took 2 photos of the cup that was used to serve my "Iced Hong Kong Style Milk Tea" Kinda cool cos I had never used that to drink my life before :D. >.<" yup "Suagu"

Jennifer's Body

2009-09-28T23:53:00.002+08:00

Okay.. so today I actually didn't do much crap. I went to SSDC canceled my test and shift it to another day.. why? becos i heard one of the boy walk out laughin' like the way I do. He laughed and then smiled and told his friend I got 44/45!

Holy! OMG! my first reaction was like yea! what if I got this result?! I quickly change the date and moved on..

and then as I walked to the YCK MRT station.. I heard this message "Changing of EZ-Link cards will be at every station's Ticket Office, please change by 30th of Sept..bla bla bla.." and I was like O.O ok.. i need to change mine.. but Mum's EZ-Link's at home :S so yea.. tmr as I head down to DB MRT station (PS), I have to change the card thru PP MRT station's ticket office.. maybe lesser people..:S

and where was i? ohh yup as I were at AMK Hub.. I found this haircut shop call "Hairinn" ok, I would say not bad cos I got a discount from 18 to 14.40 :D
Although I assume there are different hairstylist, but first time, im like whatever..
as i get to know the people maybe things are easier to talk about..

So yea.. got a haircut today :D looks fresher got an "emo" fringe :S.. is this good?
LOL i think im keeping an "emo" fringe hahax funny but my hair overall is ok.
cos the hairdresser only helped me trim the thick parts so yup the hair length only change a little to the amount of hair trimmed away..

ahh whatever as long as im happy :D 14.40 for a haircut like that is worth it.
ohh yea back to the topic.. Jennifer's Body?

This show is really worth watching at home :S LOL thanks to Z-Share omg ..
I watched the trailer and I thought wow.. Adam Brody, Megan Fox were in it maybe its gonna be a good one and the horror was quite catchy.
then I saw this "playing in Singapore on 29th Oct" and I was like erm 3 days in aft I start Uni.. not so much of fun. So I went on checking if there were some crappy version but able to watch ..

yea there were, and tonnes! LOL I finished watching and thought the 2 women kissing scene was really more of a turned on for guys.. and well the whole movie was more turned on for guys seriously.. but what i didn't get was the childhood between the 2 female characters were they friends from childhood? why does the bond seem so close as the twist in between the movie so sucky?

Well, this is really a supernatural movie in some sort but can't deny that many facial expressions from Megan Fox were very seductive >.<"" and I can tell Amanda Seyfried was a little intimidated throughout the whole show.. yet, she gave it all in the "sex" scene LOL I would say this might rate either NC-16/ M18 depending on the content. To me I think might be M18 since some scenes are quite bloody and violent. somehow

O.O almost forgot tmr has a course preview session at 7pm// okay pretty busy tmr gotta go~~

Hehe DHL brought good news :D

2009-09-22T15:27:00.005+08:00

Nice, just as I were listenin' to Taylor Swift- Breathe..

guess what? "Ding Dong" .. ah ha! my first reaction was okay!! DHL is here!!

my next reaction was ok sign the the package.. take my package...

and then my feelin's were low cos i am about to see the certificates :S

but then suddenly!! OMG I screamed and ran, txt my mum, told ppl whom i cared

and suddenly my mood just sway to the highest it can go! i was really overwhelmed

once again.. never in my life i got a honour achievements..

never in my life i saw such things happening. but now i believe that if you want

dreams to come true, you ought to give 110% or more effort in your work to achieve

it. this is very rewarding, quote from one of my friend Fuxia, she always told me

that all these hard works will pay off! and hey!! my dear friend! I made it!

:D its a day of celebration. a day to remember i had been there .. i had been

through the cold nights, and hard days the sweaty breathless times on the track,

no matter through the rainy, sunny, snowy weather, i brought myself back to Singapore. "T.I. ---I'm done. I got myself here, I'll get myself out."

(The quote is from live your life ft. Rihanna only be heard at the ending of the MV)

With hardly anyone's help, with my own motivations and many supports i see the results.

I think i wanna thank the inner Clara Koh for not giving urself up! you know your

road is far and wide yet, you're about to see that one light waiting right ahead of you!

:D strive on!

Song of the Day: BLG- Heart Heart Heartbreak

2009-09-22T10:56:00.002+08:00

For some reasons.. this song was playin in my subconcious last night.. and i was

hardly able to sleep cause it was playin so loud in my mind.. anyways enjoy.. :D

as the lead singer says this album will either tear u apart or u're goin' to agree

with it.. so the lyric goes:

Heartbreak!
Heart heart heartbreak!
Girl don't say you love me when you're out the door,
Ohohoh yeah!
Cause I know things are different than they were before,
Ohohoh yeah!

Kill me with your kiss,
It's so hard to resist you,
When you look me in the eyes tonight,
And say we're headed for a heart heart heartbreak,
And I don't ever ever wanna hear you say,
Don't say you love me, don't even,
Don't say you love me, you're leaving.

Ready for a heart heart heartbreak,
I'm gonna gonna turn around and walk away,
Don't say you love me, don't even,
Don't say you love me, you're leaving.

You say we'd stick it out through the thick and thin,
Ohohoh yeah!
And when the walls came down,
You wouldn't let me in,
Ohohoh yeah!
We've been through it all,
My back's against the wall,
It's crashing down on me tonight,

Yeah and we're headed for a heart heart heartbreak,
And I don't ever ever wanna hear you say,
Don't say you love me, don't even,
Don't say you love me, you're leaving.

Ready for a heart heart heartbreak,
I'm gonna gonna turn around and walk away,
Don't say you love me, don't even,
Don't say you love me, you're leaving.

I'm sick and tired of this whole situation,
Here comes another fight,
Beating me down with the same conversation,
Don't say you love me tonight.

Heartbreak,
And I'm ready for a heartheart heartbreak,
And I don't ever ever wanna hear you say,
Don't say you love me, don't even,
Don't say you love me, you're leaving.

Ready for a heart heart heartbreak,
I'm gonna gonna turn around and walk away,
Don't say you love me, don't even,
Don't say you love me, you're leaving.

Ready for a heart heart heartbreak,
And I don't ever ever wanna hear you say,
Don't say you love me, don't even,
Don't say you love me, you're leaving.

Zachary Matthias Young!! 1 mth old!

2009-09-20T18:03:00.003+08:00

:D My beloved cousin's son!!

so cute never really get the chance to take a nice photo cos too many of cousins

friend surroundin' Zac!! wow what a popular boy! :D I seriously think he has

a good sense of humour! He could post when he sees a camera!! wow! so odd for babies

but not for him! :D Lucky for cousin Edna and Steven :D.

Congrats for baby Zac to turn 1 month old :D.

So overall I only manage to take a photo of him :( but still happy enough hahax.

Currently got drifted off by Coldplay's Yellow on MTV LOL. okay that was random

but yup Cold play rocks hehe :D

Below is a pic of Zac taken by me :D sorry of the bad quality +_+
Hahax he looked sleepy :D

&& today's quote from me is

"远方望过去, 我是那个不起眼的石头. 但是我却有着一颗倔强的心, 永不放弃!"

nice? yea definitely! for all those who lost faith and hope! don't give up

the exit is still the one you're lookin for. don't give up searchin' u'll gain

much more than u'll ever notice. :D

that's all blog again hehe :D.

First Practical Lesson :D

2009-09-17T23:15:00.002+08:00

Hmm how to say this feelin' right now. :D

My first practical lesson is so interestin.

Met an uncle (instrutor), he was very talkative and i kinda >.< slept off in

the middle of the intro although he told me many interestin' facts ..

:D i like to figure out the brake and acceleration paddle ^^.

so its like today's lesson drivin' is like to take care of the precious baby :D.

so worry to bang, so fragile to bang .. everything i just feel like O.O

my instructor told me just relax and think ur playin' daytona .

wow this is fun as i get the 'feel' of it i feel more comfortable and confident :D

wish i could drive more :D. always loved to drive. although things nv seem easy

im not gonna gv up. im goin' to crank this course :D! my new cars wait for me!

im comin' and quote from transformers "the car chooses you". hahax okay lets

see what car will choose me as their owner!

ohh last but not least, today went shoppin' with my beloved cousins :D, i feel

very loved! many thanks and hope the two of you bought somethin' that you liked!

:D guess cousins stand out more than friends hahax.

signin' off --Hamlet-- hahax jk

Sentosa Trip

2009-09-16T12:00:00.002+08:00

Hoho, yesterday went Sentosa with my cousin and her friends.

Overall, I thought it was kinda fun? Although during the night I kept hearin'

someone screaming and the voice seem to come from hui jun? LOL

hahax but I had a fun day, said not to get tanned and ended up we all got a slight

sun burnt. seriously, we stayed the whole afternoon at the sea :S so yaa.

wow lol, anyways thanks to everyone. hope i didnt cause anyone to be uneasy hahax

yup ah wish i could have a bunch of such friends that could ask me out for gatherin' too.

sighz anyways things are written properly in my destiny. after yesterday, im not that

afraid anymore. when things are suppose to act themselves out. let it be then!

life is short. and sometimes lettin' myself out to the roller coaster is fine!!

so yea Clara Koh!! let things be, it'll work better, sometimes things do not work as planned.

Song of the Day: Justin Bieber- One Time

2009-09-13T13:08:00.002+08:00

Oh no!! im so obsessed with this song!!! :D

This guy has so much potential in him! 15 years old?!!

omg he has the talent of rnb and hip-hop!!

ps. he looks like those guys around our age like arron carter and jesse mccartney!

:D oh no great love this song. and the lyric goes:

Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time
Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time
Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time
One time, one time

When I met you girl my heart went knock knock
Now them butterflies in my stomach won't stop stop
And even though it's a struggle love is all we got
And we gon' keep keep climbing to the mountain top

Your world is my world
And my fight is your fight
My breath is your breath
And your heart

And girl you're my one love, my one heart
My one life for sure
Let me tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

And I'ma be your one guy
You'll be my #1 girl
Always making time for you
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

You look so deep, you know that it humbles me
You're by my side, them troubles them not trouble me
Many have called but the chosen is you
Whatever you want shawty I'll give it to you

Your world is my world
And my fight is your fight
My breath is your breath
And your heart

And girl you're my one love, my one heart
My one life for sure
Let me tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

And I'ma be your one guy
You'll be my #1 girl
Always making time for you
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

Shawty right there
She's got everything I need
And I'ma tell her one time
Give you everything you need down to my last dime

She makes me happy
I know where I'll be
Right by your side
'Cause she is the one

And girl you're my one love, my one heart
My one life for sure
Let me tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

And I'ma be your one guy
You'll be my #1 girl
Always making time for you
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time
Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time
Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time
One time, one time

Song of the day:一公尺- 言承旭

2009-09-08T14:20:00.002+08:00

:D nv really like his voice from the past. but this song kept comin' on to

my mind lately, why not just to "回味" a song from his first album like 5 yrs ago.

Listen closely to his emotions, i think that is the way he sings :D.

Lyrics:

餐桌两边黑咖啡冒着烟
曲折翻腾的弧线模糊了双眼
你习惯没变手指头敲打着玻璃杯
一整夜不曾看我一眼

那条项炼软弱摊在眼前
亲手系上的思念被你放了线
空荡的胸前是他准备要接手的世界
专程来告别连再见都心不在焉

你在一公尺不到的面前
手拼命挥还是往下坠
眼神那么绝冻结一切不让我挽回

我在一公尺之外的世界
一辈子回不了的原点
我这才发现你离我有多么远

餐桌两边没交集的情节
看着你度日如年等我说再见
你神情没变把距离扩大的好遥远
一公尺就好像一万个光年

你在一公尺不到的面前
手拼命挥还是往下坠
眼神那么绝冻结一切不让我挽回

我在一公尺之外的世界
一辈子回不了的原点
我这才发现你离我有多么远

你在一公尺不到的面前
手拼命挥还是往下坠
眼神那么绝冻结一切不让我挽回

我在一公尺之外的世界
一辈子回不了的原点
我这才发现你离我有多么远
我只有成全让你离开我身边